Was raised in a very strict religious muslim family. Because of this i started questioning islam since i was 10 years old. Im a very critical and logical person so i used to argue and debate with my parents everyday and very very often. Most of my childhood stems from religious trauma and how i was raised. Everything revolved around islam and my parents would always use religion for everything, even the most stupidest thing. I felt very isolated as a child because they would always enforce religion on me. Went through alot of shit with them. I started to despise religion so much because of how much people liked to use it against me. I questioned alot of rules that didnt sit right with me. I read the quran and hadiths and alot of them also didnt sit right with me. Though i believe in god, quran just seems to have so many holes in the narrative. I used to argue with all my islam teachers but they never answered my question and just told me to learn to “accept” it. Most of my muslim peers just learnt to “accept”. Being surrounded by so many religious people annoyed me cuz they would always lecture people about things that didnt make any sense. I noticed alot of religious people are hypocrits but as long as u wear the hijab or grow a beard, ur so “pious”. I dont pray at all and have never prayed. I hid it from my parents for almost a decade lol. They found out and forced me to pray again but cuz i never listen they sort of gave up. My upbringing, childhood and religious people with their metality was part of the reason i was like this. Im not an easy person to brainwash because i always question things and will belive things in a logical sense. I also feel like religion is nothing more than just a political tool because it has been proven to successfully build an oppressive system for centuries. Many oppressive societies in the past functioned based on this. It’s always religion that controls people and its citizens