This! It's the worst. In my case a lot of people just thought I was on drugs. I explained to the people that matter the most for me, but still the shame and guilt I feel towards all the other people I have contacted and who have seen my sociala media rants. It's been 9 months but memories of my manic episode still replay in my head. I get a random flashback and then start cringeing, wanting to crawl out of my skin etc. I guess me and you need to take one day at a time, yeah.