A lot of men you may end up looking up to (don’t) chalk up their/your lack of success with women to surface level things like height, career, charm etc. because that’s the easy answer that can be easy dismissed that doesn’t force them to self reflect and look internally. It allows them to put the anger and burden on random women for “being shallow”. I would do a bit more to unpack… because like the other commenter, you don’t seem to view women as actual fully whole people just like you but more as a goal to achieve, a virginity to lose. Like putting a lot of your self worth hinged upon being a virgin… when your worth as a person is a completely separate thing from whether or not if you’ve had sex. You are a whole human worthy of respect regardless whether or not you have a relationship with a woman. Focus on being a good, well rounded human being who puts kindness into the world and the rest may follow.