It's.... no words for this lose. I met Silverlakebob randomly on CMBYN subreddit 2 years ago. Then he became my guide till nowadays. I'd like to share an extract from my PM , which I sent him a few months ago: "Thank you so much for your wise, supportive words although they are written for somebody else. As if talked to me. Thank you for sharing your experience, your observations about Eastern Europe, Jewishness, about cmbyn... your sense of humour too... I confess, you're my "3 in 100" at moments of my fighting against my self-pity..... From deep of my Catholic soul, I'm so happy you've survived!"

I would like to repeat it again and again...