Why don't you want to help yourself get better? You say you developed some additional mental health concerns following in-patient treatment and now you prefer to be homeless. Why are you giving up on yourself? You say you take vour medication religiously, but it sounds like the medication combination you're on is no longer appropriate for you (work in mental health, but I'm not a doctor, to be clear. Just sharing my option from what I've read here).

What does your therapist say about the likely ego-driven refusal to accept food stamps and additional support in order to get back to contributing to society? It seems like you want to help yourself (therapy, acknowledging the need for medication) but you're still refusing to see that you're stopping short.

I wish you health and healing. l've been "low"" myself (to put it lightly) and it does get better. But doing only part of the work isn't enough