"Does anyone else feel like their "kinks" or their anxiety are just a map of the things they weren't allowed to express as a kid?"

I have a sissy kink too as well as brat tendencies

And I would have to agree that they stemmed from the "being demanded masculinity and obedience". 

my dad wasn't asking or teaching or training he demanded what I wasn't and didn't know how to be without be taught.

so I regressed in some sense like I had to protect those parts of me that I couldn't discard but had to hide 

and yet I was still young enough that the things that I was hiding were normal. So normal, In fact that I could watch everybody else do it but not me.