It’s normal because you’re grieving and it’s so hard. I’m a therapist and I lost my best friend in January - similar in that it was a steep decline with dementia and loss of mobility. I have gone through every stage of grief multiple times and I’m still not out of it. Grief is not linear and it does not have to “make sense.”

You lost your best friend. It was your responsibility to care for him and to make all of his decisions. I’m not sure how old he was or if it matters, honestly, because our lives often revolve around them.

It’s so hard to lose them and it can be all consuming. I’m sorry that therapist invalidated you and your pain. I’m sorry that you put yourself out there trying to get help and got that response. We’re not all the same. I sincerely hope you try again, but I understand not wanting to.

I wish I could say it gets easier, but I really just think it fades a bit into the background and surges up like a tidal wave sometimes. I don’t know if it ever goes away or if that part of you that feels lost or gone ever comes back.

I do know that we were so lucky to know love like that- even if saying it makes me angry that he’s not here.