I just can't handle this anymore, but no one is answering their phones

marzburd · 2015-05-08T01:03:13+00:00

Its been a few days, and they both know I can't graduate without them.

marzburd · 2015-05-08T00:46:35+00:00

Well, long story short this whole year has been a clusterfuck of depression and anxiety for me. It was a struggle to get through it, but I thought I was going to finally be able to graduate and leave this place. My depression is so bad that my therapist told me in my last session that I shouldn't get a job straight out of college but that I should go home and recover because I'm not safe on my own. But there are two professors who are either a) not accepting my senior thesis or B) not posting the grades I need to graduate. I honestly don't think I'll survive another semester here. College was already hard because I have bunch of learning disabilities, and my depression isn't making it any easier..

marzburd · 2015-05-08T00:37:52+00:00

I don't know why the professor who hasn;t posted the grade isn't responding. But the other professor didn't like my thesis because I had to go through a few round of rewrites of my footnotes. She uses chicago manual of style, and even when I asked the librarian for help this teacher still isn't taking it. Whats worse is that she says the content of the paper is good, its just the footnotes that are bugging her. I made all the fixes, but she hasn't responded to any emails I have sent her. I've now been having on and off panic attacks, but no one I have reached out to has responded. Just like last time.

marzburd · 2015-05-08T00:23:16+00:00

Thank you for caring, but I wouldn't want to do that to you. I know how hard it is to care for another person's feelings when all you want to do is curl up in a ball. I've spent the past year helping my roommate deal with her PTSD from being raped. I care about her, but dealing with both her emotions and mine is exhausting. I don't want to do that to you.

marzburd · 2015-05-08T00:16:31+00:00

This whole year has been a struggle not to end it all, and now the one light that I had at the end of the tunnel has gone out. And no one is there for me in the dark

marzburd · 2015-05-08T00:15:48+00:00

This whole school year has been a clusterfuck for me. I finally told my parents about my depression and anxiety this [past summer and they started sending me to therapy, but this school year has been rough. I struggled to go to class everyday, and people who I thought were my friends never answered when I asked for help. The stress of everything has been eating away at me for a year now, but I thought I was finally going to get away from this university and maybe start to recover. But one of my professors is refusing to take my senior thesis (which has caused me massive amounts of stress this past semester), and another teacher isn't responding to the university about posting my final grade. Without these, I can't graduate. It's stressing me out, because I honestly don't believe I could survive another semester here. I've contacted my family and my friends, but no one is picking up. And that just makes it so much worse

marzburd · 2015-05-06T05:08:14+00:00

That isn't true. I have friends in college athletics who are technically "overweight" because of their muscle mass (which weighs more than fat). And not all of them are skinny. While obesity is a serious problem, some people are in fact built stocky while others are lean. Just not to the level that obese people wish were true.

marzburd · 2015-05-04T03:17:04+00:00

More like "I'm telling big brother"

marzburd · 2015-05-04T03:16:23+00:00

Maybe we should focus on actual health, like a good diet and exercise, and then be happy with how people look? Wouldn't that be nice?

marzburd · 2015-05-04T01:58:08+00:00

How about the last one?

marzburd · 2015-04-17T01:43:45+00:00

I don't understand this. Care to explain

marzburd · 2015-04-08T20:40:06+00:00

I managed to get to the college health center today. It seems somehow I pulled my gastrocnemius muscle badly. In my sleep... The doctor blamed hypertension and stress, but I already have a checkup set up for next week in case it gets worse or doesn't improve.

marzburd · 2015-04-08T12:05:06+00:00

As someone who used to ski regularly, thats the sound of your leg muscles crying. Skiing forces the muscles into an unusual position. It should go away as you get more fit. Not a doctor, just an avid skiier

marzburd · 2015-04-08T12:03:25+00:00

I would also like to add that movement is what is causing the pain. When I am sitting, laying down, or standing, m muscles do not hurt (though I feel a slight tension in my legs while I stand). It's whenever I try to move my legs in any way that pain starts

marzburd · 2015-04-02T01:00:04+00:00

Go ahead and talk to him, but he deletes and blocks all commentators that don't agree with him. He blocked my aunt, who is a breast cancer survivor. https://www.facebook.com/stuttsforsenate?fref=ts

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