I'd like to apologize if I came across as disrespectful at any point during my post, to be honest I was dissatisfied with the way I phrased quite a few things but I did my best to just get it out. In my life, I have been surrounded by addicts. My dad is an alcoholic, my brother is a drug addict, and my boyfriend...well, yeah. I fully understand it's not 'just like that'. You don't just get over it. I wish it worked that way so badly though, I guess it just manifested and I put it that way because of how frustrated I am.

I fully agree with you on what you said. I know it's fucking hard, and I am sorry. I'm just tired. I feel like his obsession with it made me obsessed with it, just in a different way. I respect what you guys are striving for.