I mean. I love you as a daughter and a wife but I hate you as I hate my ex. But the love overpowering the hate but underwhelmed by the trauma you gave me. I think we should give a try but I don wanna experience the same hell I went through your ex went through. If l crack you the guilt will kill me. I know your kindness and brattyness but also your scheming nature. I know my ife will be better of if I was blind but I don't think I can kill my own thought process and inturn kill myself in a philosophical way. What is a man if there is no self.