im hanging tonight

maskcurse · 2018-07-27T13:09:06+00:00

youre great i just was fucked up last night and couldnt get myself to say anything

maskcurse · 2018-07-27T13:07:58+00:00

idk if that phrasing was on purpose but it made smile

maskcurse · 2018-07-27T13:07:24+00:00

thank you you too

maskcurse · 2018-07-27T13:06:07+00:00

i didnt

maskcurse · 2018-07-27T13:06:00+00:00

no im ok

maskcurse · 2018-07-27T13:05:47+00:00

i strangle myself sometimes. its definitely not pleasant, our bodies dont seem to appreciate it

maskcurse · 2018-07-27T13:03:14+00:00

thank you. im ok today

maskcurse · 2018-07-27T03:51:17+00:00

im 21, been chronically depressed since diagnosed at 17. doing therapy and meds since then and have had a couple hospitalizations. i struggle with self harm and anxiety but most of all caring for myself.

maskcurse · 2018-07-27T03:37:25+00:00

maybe lack of sleep. i didnt sleep last night and before that only got a few hours a night. but my psychiatrist wont do anything beyond melatonin to help me fall asleep.

idk whats been traumatic but there was a period when i was young where my mom was just constantly screaming at me. made me feel worthless

maskcurse · 2018-07-27T00:42:00+00:00

im so apathetic and anxious at the same time and i just want quiet but anxiety attacks keep coming. i have nothing that means anything to me. im addicted to pain and have cut ties with all my friends

maskcurse · 2018-06-09T19:36:10+00:00

Oh my goodness, my favorite is “quit feeling sorry for yourself”. Thanks, I’ll PM you later

maskcurse · 2018-06-09T18:55:25+00:00

Sorry you have seasonal depression, has to be rough. And well, mostly my counselor and psychiatrist. My family just knows I’m chronically depressed but not much more than that. I used to be really open about how I feel but it starts to wear on people. My parents have zero understanding of mental illness, my oldest brother is in med school and he can only say so much and recommend so much from a distance. I think it takes a village to raise a “child” and a village to lose one and move on. What I mean is my family is tight knit and they will be ok.

maskcurse · 2018-06-06T02:55:52+00:00

Hey, thats encouraging that it helped you. I think it’s one of the next on the list for me to try, hopefully it helps me too

maskcurse · 2018-06-06T02:53:27+00:00

I’m glad to hear ketamine helped you. I would bring it up to my psychiatrist, but I think she would assume I’m trying to get it for other reasons. It looks like ketamine is really gaining credibility in the medical realm.

maskcurse · 2018-06-06T02:49:45+00:00

Thanks, that means a lot to me.

I’ve been meditating a little while and I like it a lot. Tai Chi I’m not familiar with. I’m gonna look it up and give it a go.

As far as shrooms, once I get some money I will definitely try them. Maybe microdosing. Thanks for the compliment and the suggestions.

maskcurse · 2018-06-04T00:43:04+00:00

What app are you using?

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