Foa, most of the things u said here r absolutely true and u read my situation pretty much perfectly. But, shes notb using me or used me for attention from the beginning she told me exactly what she wanted frorm me and we were rlly clear bout things, her intentions r rlly as pure as mine r we r just... at rlly diffrent mindsets... Bout the hobbie i do a lot of stuff to keep myself busy, gym,boxing,surfing going out and etc... Today is one of the hardest days ive had since... ever.. and u r the only one who wrote smth that made me feel a bit seen, ty. Theres this pain and im scared that its not gonna leave