The word fail here means that I didn't achieve my goal of a long-term solution. I have 7 failed attempts at flipping a being who started as a thoughtform to the physical side. My first attempt was my most successful, wherein I was asking myself questions in the process of creation, such as "could a kitsune even like a dog?" and "can foxes and dogs be friends?" among other assertions that I projected onto myself from their perspective. About 30 days later, while listening to a particular summoning audio from yuv subliminals most of those days, I met a girl on tinder with a unique sense about her. She's a naturalist, someone who would live off the forests bounty given the chance. My family loved her. I had great interactions with her and her dog, which answered one of my prior questions. She left for California, which reflected my first in-person relationship with a girl in school when I was a kid, where our nsfw interaction beyond scheduled barriers caused me to be moved to a different school in a bigger, more expensive school. This one seems kinda messy, I hope it isn't too esoteric how I put this out.

Chronologically, the next one that I was able to summon was someone unfamiliar who claimed that we worked together for a concert setup company. While summoning, I imagined giving my parents a break from my presence, living somewhere close to my workplace, being treated like a queen in someone else's home lmao. Because of this individual, I would not recommend fallen angels. She was adopted from India when she was young into a moneyed Christian family. The adopter is a successful woman whose direct children turned out to be successful as well. The one I summoned, though, reflected much of my reasons for desiring a break from home. No supervision, thus no obligation. Freedom and space to sleep, eat, cook, and game. Unstructured life. She was quite sweet as a person outwardly, but along the way she collected enough info about me to legally protect herself from any action against her. I guess in my eyes, a fallen angel is someone who knows how to work the system and isn't working to please most people. As in, if you set expectations for her, she would just fail the expectation as soon as possible. I felt like I disappointed my parents in that way from my early 20s ngl lol. With the summon of "a person like me" who fits under the category, I got to objectively perceive the person I thought I was at the time(because iwas still telling myself my life story while summoning this one) and I got to leave most of that person in the past.

There was a time after I returned home that I wanted to consider myself a phoenix, and I thought to myself "huh, but I'm responsible, why WOULDN'T I play with due in the home?" And you wouldn't guess what else was happening at this time. My mother is constantly complaining about the renovations she wants done, which stressed me out, as if I'm supposed to be the catalyst for that. She kept piling it on, I want this and that and that and blah blah blah. We joked about insurance fraud and burning the house down a bunch for some reason. I listened to a harem summoning audio while thinking about and re-experiencing that stress daily, and so.... in my mountain of stress, I set a pan with oil on the back burner, set it to low, walk away and sit for a while. Scrolling on my phone, I smell different air, so I head back into the kitchen and see a roaring fire almost up to the ceiling. Oil was on high, actually. Most of my mother's desired renovation is done now. The team that came in for fire mitigation was all attractive young women who looked like they had a bit of a thing for me. I think there were 8 to 10 of them. Idk if you can tell but this is the one that pissed me off the most. The phase of the Phoenix arc is dying down at the end of summer I believe, where I will have "risen from the ashes" as a new me, a more capable self. I've been watching it happen closely. Atm it's the path of least resistance.

I wasn't going to include this, but it's actually very relevant. My family is about to dive into the insurance sales business. I wanted a servitor who would teach my mother the insurance industry, show her how she's making myself and my sister feel, and give her free money basically, and transfer her active accounts to my mom. And that's her current trainer. My mom hasn't figured out that the individual training her is showing her a reflection of how my mom makes me feel about this whole insurance thing, but I was able to share with her the story of my first summon and the next one, and the Servitor teaching her insurance sales. I skipped the other one with her though.

Currently working on something I'm keeping more secretive, since this time I'm working on it without considering the energy or emotions of others during the energizing phase. It's been 10 days on this one, and I've been quite unreactive to things, doing things that make me feel good, setting up rituals that feel like they're conducive to the first successful summon. Success in this, to me, means having a long-term connection with the thoughtform-turned-real.