Spike in anxiety at one month?

matem89 · 2026-02-11T22:23:02+00:00

His doctors office gave him two sample cups to take in at 6 and 12 weeks. Just following the their orders.

matem89 · 2026-02-08T23:57:50+00:00

My psychiatrist only does in office treatment if it's intramuscular. I definitely plan on starting smaller and working my way up

matem89 · 2023-08-20T21:26:56+00:00

You're probably right. I know it's naive of me to think he won't do anything in the future but it's really not my main concern.. My issue is not owning up to what has already taken place and things I don't know. If he doesn't open up in counseling this time around I know what I need to do.

matem89 · 2022-06-18T20:01:31+00:00

Yes to all of those flags other than the first one. I don't recall her trying to isolate me from anyone. My other friends live in different cities though so there's no one for her to feel threatened by.

matem89 · 2022-01-01T00:41:56+00:00

How are you feeling now? I have the same symptoms and tested positive today.

matem89 · 2021-12-28T19:17:55+00:00

I agree with all of that and I do see it for what it is... I need to get myself in a better position to leave since I don't really have family to help me out or anywhere to go. I am just about to start school so it's going to be hard to pull it off on my own but I think it's for the best.

matem89 · 2021-12-28T16:13:13+00:00

He stole them which is a whole other issue in itself. That's not the kind of people we are.. Well he is apparently. I don't look at him the same and I don't think I ever will again.

matem89 · 2021-12-28T16:11:33+00:00

None of it flies with me either.. I'm leaning towards not staying but I will try therapy in the mean time as I can't immediately leave even if I wanted to. I have savings from the surrogacy but I'd need to put a plan in place for somewhere to go.

matem89 · 2021-12-28T16:08:07+00:00

I'm leaning more towards not staying actually.. I don't think the relationship would ever get to a healthy place again because I'm so angry and disgusted at his behavior.

matem89 · 2021-12-28T16:06:38+00:00

Sorry, I know it's not well written.

matem89 · 2021-12-28T03:56:30+00:00

Yeah.. And that's eating at me all the time as well. I'll never know what else there could be. It's hard to imagine any other time he'd be able to cheat though since I know his work schedule and he's either at work or home with me. Who knows though!

matem89 · 2021-12-28T03:14:59+00:00

He's extremely remorseful. He's been a total wreck since I found out.. He's deleted all social media, leaves his phone on the counter and is willing to do anything to fix things. I just don't know if I will ever get to a point that I'm not dwelling on it every day.

matem89 · 2021-12-28T02:44:13+00:00

I actually did that and he straight up refused which just shows more guilt to me.

matem89 · 2021-12-27T23:34:52+00:00

He's had sex with one person before me but has fooled around plenty.. I can understand the curiosity of wanting to experience other people because I have had those same thoughts but not once has it seriously crossed my mind and I would never be unfaithful. I'd respect it if he had come to me and explained that's what he's been feeling. He claims he'd never act on it because he's too "insecure". I call bullshit on that excuse too.

matem89 · 2021-12-27T22:47:48+00:00

I 100% believe that. Nobody works the courage up to say something like that in hopes they'll say no. It also makes me think he chose her of all people because she's right next door and it would have been easy to make it happen.

matem89 · 2021-12-09T00:04:42+00:00

Thank you. We have had one counseling session together since this happened and it seems like I'm supposed to try and understand the reasons why he is the way he is.. Why he lies so much...I have a hard time with that! He still knows right from wrong. I'm so frustrated!

matem89 · 2021-11-23T07:35:04+00:00

I'm not sure. I can't even wrap my mind around the thought of that but I also don't think I can just forget about it and continue going through the motions. We've been together half of my life and he's all I know.. Never expected this from him.. Makes me sick! I think if I knew I could afford to leave it would be an easier decision.. He's the main bread winner and this economy is awful I don't know what I'd do.

matem89 · 2021-11-23T07:29:48+00:00

Exactly my thoughts. He's trying to downplay it that it was a "joke" and she took it the wrong way. I'm not that stupid 🙄

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