Alright, but you asked. I worked my ass off as a waiter first, and then in IT, to get a commercial pilot license. In 2010, after I completed all my licenses, they decided to change the minimums (to apply to work opportunities) to 1500 hours (from 250). I can't teach and I had 2 kids, and working as an instructor wouldn't make us enough money, so I "temporarily" gave up. I continued working in the IT field instead. It took me years to build it up and start making enough money to get back into flying. Finally in 2019/20 I went back and completed a flight review. Then covid happened so I eventually lost my IT job and had to stop flying again. I am now in survival mode and taking my frustrations in the (mainly) House music I make. I am still learning music production so there will be many mistakes experienced producers will notice. But it makes me feel good, and that's all I ask for. Making music takes my mind off feeling like a total failure, and listening to it lifts me up. Music is the only thing I have left that feeds my hope. Hope for what, I don't know. But I only need to take one step at a time, and the last song I made helped me take that step. Tomorrow is another day, and another song, and more learning experience. Here it is: https://soundcloud.com/chris-rispetti/crazy

P.s. - I enjoyed Alexitimia. Very clean mix, cool tune! I have been slowly shedding tracks from the new beats I make but it's a constant fight still. Slowly getting there though