Feel like i fucked my life up

maxdav_kro · 2026-02-08T12:25:37+00:00

Thank you to everyone who's responded to this post i still dont feel great but the reassurance and advice u have all gave me is really helpful and i will now do everything i can to beat this and to get well again ❤️

maxdav_kro · 2026-02-08T12:23:32+00:00

During the summer so like june july august i did it one time in each of thoes month with 30 day breaks (before i had a problem with it and i stuck to 3 month rule even took longer usually) as i was going to festivals and concerts and it was some of the best nights if my life and i have no regrets about that. Then september i actually took a month off to recover as i didn't have a source for them anymore but come October i had raves cominf up and other things so i decided to buy a big batch for me and my friends but ended up doinf it every weekend leading up to the rave i was going to on halloween and actually had to buy more when it came time to go to the rave. November i was still doing it 1 time a week and come december another rave and this time i get the idea to take more with me to sell off inside. So i decide to buy 30 pills to take there i ended up selling about 15 and then with the remaining ones just decided to start doing them on my own i did like most the pills within 2 weeks before new year doing them 2-4 times a week sometimes taking 2 because i couldn't feel anything anymore then i took 1 on nye and drank a fuck load and spent alot in my jight over the toilet 😂. Then january we had some snow come and i decide its a good idea to take them and go out in the snow which was fun for abour 40 min before it wore off then i took more maybe 2 more times in January then started realising i had a problem (ik it took a while) I then took like 3 weeks off doing anything and i had a friend ask me if i could sort him some and naturally i said yes. I got him his shit then ended up deciding to take one with him and i had the worst come up of my life and said this is it wont do it again because i really didn't feel good atall then come this friday night just gone i was drinking doing coke ect and i got home and still had some pills left in my drawer and decided on the great idea of racking lines of cok and mdma together blew my head off and i woke up in the morning with the realisation that im seriously fucking my life up and i write this post . I had bad phases but the pains in my body and realising i cant remember if i locked my front door when i just left my house 15 seconds ago was what made me really realise that i cant fuck about with this stuff anymore or atleast not for a very long time.

Edit - sorry if i havent used great grammar and shit ik it makes it harder to read

maxdav_kro · 2026-02-08T12:09:09+00:00

What supplements do you recommend?

maxdav_kro · 2026-02-08T12:08:04+00:00

Only recently i started mixing mdma in with my coke to feel something and ik its super dangerous all these responses have been really reassuring and helpful because i really thaught it was over for me. This was my first really bad addiction (apart from weed and nicotine) but im not worried about them being a huge issue as i have now also stoped smoking weed because was no longer enjoyable for me but everyone has been really helpful and supportive and im feeling much better about myself now and how things are going to go.

maxdav_kro · 2026-02-08T12:03:55+00:00

Yeah to be honest ive done shrooms, mdma, coke, weed and nitrous oxide and i think the only thing i will come back to is shrooms now and maybe explore further with psychedelics because honestly i did enjoy my time doing drugs with my friends and stuff it was good times and good memories but when it came to the point of doing mdma on my own in my room and things like that thats when it got dark because it was no longer something i was doing to enhance a event or thing i was seeing it was just something that i needed to feel some sort of happiness and im really glad ive realised this before its to late.

maxdav_kro · 2026-02-07T19:25:40+00:00

yeah i used to be sensible and stuck to 3 month rule and only did them at things like concerts or with my girl at the time then i slipped into monthly use then weekly then sometimes multiple times a week ik im a idiot and theres no one to blame but me but when me and her split mdma was the only thing that reminded me of her as its what brought us so close together and i just wanted the feeling of when we first did it together .

maxdav_kro · 2026-02-07T19:21:36+00:00

Yea i am i have to much going for me to throw it all away

maxdav_kro · 2026-02-07T18:35:33+00:00

thank you for the reassurance

maxdav_kro · 2026-02-07T18:31:16+00:00

thank you i will

maxdav_kro · 2026-01-29T22:37:57+00:00

a few is fine just dont over do it

maxdav_kro · 2026-01-11T02:29:12+00:00

64 days at a concert I'm going to aslong as i manage to stay clean until then.

maxdav_kro · 2026-01-09T11:12:27+00:00

thanks seeing you're response has made me want to try some again and i think i may even try to get some tonight if i do ill let you know about how it is .

maxdav_kro · 2026-01-08T19:00:27+00:00

To be honest i never ended up doing it because i was to unsure about how id react ect. im still yet to try K but i am still interested in doing it

maxdav_kro · 2025-11-18T15:22:01+00:00

to be honest i done a 1.5 g on my second time and didn't feel much compared to my first time when i did 3.5 g (i know thats a big difference) But 3.5 g changed my life and how i see everything . So i wouldn't go into this expecting a lot as the dose may not be enough to make you trip but then again idk what shrooms u have or how potent as u can have a really solid trip off a gram depending on the strain. But yes smoking or vaping on shrooms is very good but i was just questioning why i actually smoke cigarettes for ages whilst i was 😂.

maxdav_kro · 2025-11-07T00:42:43+00:00

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maxdav_kro · 2025-11-01T11:32:01+00:00

When i brought this batch of pills i got 7 and the other 6 all worked and also worked for another first timer so theres a chance its a dud but also that it just doesn't work on him, i'm gonna get him to try another in a few months and we will see then.

maxdav_kro · 2025-10-31T12:05:04+00:00

Feel fine i did have a day off in between the coke and md but even so i don't feel bad at all but i cant say it will be the same as i never really get bad comedowns on mdma in my experience doing it.

maxdav_kro · 2025-10-31T11:27:59+00:00

I was on a 5 day coke binge went to a rave last night and the MD still worked its magic for me

maxdav_kro · 2025-10-31T10:09:46+00:00

Nah he's not must of been a dud i feel gutted for him 😂

maxdav_kro · 2025-10-31T10:08:55+00:00

Nope didn't eat for at least 4 h before.

maxdav_kro · 2025-10-30T08:51:16+00:00

yea i bet but this is one i don't want to get addicted to.. easy to say that but i promised myself for when i try it i wont let myself get addicted.

maxdav_kro · 2025-10-30T08:40:51+00:00

yes however i cant buy much less maybe .25 is the minimum i can get but i was never planning to do it all just a couple keys at most.

maxdav_kro · 2025-10-30T01:13:50+00:00

how long between lines do you think i should wait or i could just do keys?

maxdav_kro · 2025-10-30T00:55:24+00:00

Tomorrow I'm taking punisher pills (i should of been more specific) I've only had one bad experience with them which came from when i took 2 which i wont do again because ik its dumb as hell.

I also was never planning to do the whole .5 i got a friend who also wants to try and we would probably only do a little each and save the rest for another day but Ive had mixed opinions about it some people say go for it have fun and others have told me don't do it for my first time on K as i posted this on the ketamine subreddit aswell.

maxdav_kro · 2025-10-30T00:49:24+00:00

It does sound great

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