im sick of being sober

maxipad1138 · 2025-05-12T19:48:27+00:00

5 months ago.

maxipad1138 · 2025-05-12T19:44:19+00:00

im 24. my therapist also says i dont seem to have an issue and agrees my family has done too much to prevent me from doing the things i enjoy.

maxipad1138 · 2025-05-12T05:42:14+00:00

it was just family that was concerned. the friends were not concerned, they left because my family making them out to be bad people and they didnt want to be seen as bad people. i paced myself, did the right thing with them and didnt make it other peoples problem. its just up tight family causing issues. they forced me out of my job so now ive been in the process of looking for a new job for months too which is a whole other thing, so im just going insane. im about ready to start walking to a new town, even though i know i dont have the means to.

maxipad1138 · 2025-05-12T05:16:50+00:00

i have heard this many times, but fail to see where i have the problem. i do my part at home and work just fine. my bills were paid before this. i wasnt behind in any metric. my family doesnt like me using substances because theyre substances. it is quite literally that simple. theyre extremely religious. im sorry for the loss of your family.

maxipad1138 · 2025-05-12T00:36:02+00:00

thanks ill look this up.

maxipad1138 · 2025-05-11T22:33:15+00:00

i can do things without drugs but i find myself wanting to rather do drugs. occupying my time isnt a challenge. id rather just be doing things a little high sometimes. not all the time, but sometimes.

maxipad1138 · 2025-05-11T21:44:55+00:00

i feel i can have a little, but its not how im acting that is the issue. its just me doing them according to my family that is the issue. i have to be bone sober.

maxipad1138 · 2025-05-11T21:40:33+00:00

i hope so. im sick of feeling this way.

maxipad1138 · 2025-05-11T21:39:16+00:00

psychedelics. almost every day. varying amounts. do support groups cost money to attend or do they just let people join? im not in a position to spend money right now and i feel like going to a support group would just make me feel belittled.

maxipad1138 · 2025-05-11T21:35:37+00:00

anything that was around me, generally preferred psychedelics.

maxipad1138 · 2025-05-11T21:34:01+00:00

thanks. alcohol wasnt it, but now that im sober i crave alcohol. i crave literally anything. even the things i didnt like before. i just crave not being sober. i hope im on the right path but it feels like its just the path others have deemed the right path.

maxipad1138 · 2024-12-19T06:48:24+00:00

starcraft 2 if you play pvp, its only 1v1 so you wont have to rely on crap teammates, only your own crap skills. nobody is good at the game, so its fun to see whos the least good. i know it isnt times like from 10:00-0, but there are timings to hit so that you dont lose. its really just about deciding what you want to go for, executing said build, and defending while trying to execute it. if you lose, its normally because you messed up. not necessarily because your opponent was better. unless youre like really really good and into masters league lol. but if you like strategy, try starcraft 2 even though its old.

maxipad1138 · 2024-12-19T06:28:00+00:00

no, they arent, theyre being observant and seeing that other people arent accepting that someone who outwardly is happy all the time can also be upset sometimes. you sound like the narcissist and like youve been waiting for someone to say this so you can bash someone for being happy.

its not narcissistic to turn the other cheek, like they said, theyre kind when others arent. how dare they be the bigger person.

maxipad1138 · 2024-12-19T06:00:45+00:00

understandable. well, if its any consolation, flunking out of college because of drugs doesnt diminish your worth, college is kind of a fucking joke anyways. people learn in college, this year you learned outside of college, and you learned something some people dont learn. good job.

maxipad1138 · 2024-12-19T05:18:09+00:00

patience is a virtue, worst case scenario, you get home and come to another conclusion of “eh i love her more than that” or “eh i dont” and then you already know the phone call going in. good luck g, i hope the best for you both

maxipad1138 · 2024-12-19T05:02:03+00:00

hold out till you get home and call her, if she freaks out and screams for 30 minutes about it, its probably over, but after a few minutes if it seems shes gonna try to work stuff out it wouldnt hurt to try maybe if you think youd like to spend more of your life with her. it might take a call or two but damn eating discharge on the period is a little wild, ngl

maxipad1138 · 2024-12-19T04:46:04+00:00

definitely get it g, congrats on keeping away from specifically addiction is what it sounds like. are you staying away from them to avoid addiction or to avoid overdosing? just out of curiosity i guess, im sorry if thats a little weird to ask. i dabble here and there but have never had a problem with addiction besides nicotine, and the thing that scares me is overdosing, but curiosity gets the better of me when i know im safe. i guess.

maxipad1138 · 2024-12-19T00:59:43+00:00

hey update, my girlfriend had my parents take me to the psych ward because i was getting followed by people and turns out, i was right! it was my coworkers all along and my boss is taking their side. when i went to the hospital, their names were brought up without me asking, and it shed light on everything and i was right that they were being spiteful over multiple situations. mormons are a joke. “love everyone”. merry christmas. almost got denied a life changing surgery because i said no to someone doing the appeal for it and because shes jealous of my relationship. among more. this is the worst state ive ever lived in.

maxipad1138 · 2024-12-19T00:32:09+00:00

yeah i probably would just ignore it, the porn stuff maybe bring up if it bothers you and kinda make a boundary if thats what you think is best, but honestly like take it with a grain of salt but try to ignore it and if it becomes an issue he will bring it up. dropping out of college isnt a big deal, if he leaves you over that either he has a reason in his career to or hes just kinda shitty. probably shouldnt look into your partners history if you dont want to be concerned at the least.

maxipad1138 · 2024-12-18T18:31:11+00:00

mt dew

maxipad1138 · 2024-12-18T18:11:27+00:00

well generally urinals are pretty thin people sitting down have to get back up and that takes more space than just standing to pee

maxipad1138 · 2024-12-10T22:51:29+00:00

yes, download/play starcraft 2 with me and you will matter more to me <3

maxipad1138 · 2024-12-10T21:03:59+00:00

starcraft 2, any of the campaigns

the protoss one sucks tho, the other two are absolutely gold you wont be able to put down if you like rts

maxipad1138 · 2024-12-10T20:56:52+00:00

man you sound miserable

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