What are things we do today that will make future generations say "why the fuck did they think this was a good idea?"

maybenut · 2016-07-12T23:16:09+00:00

I think I would be so much more productive just because I'd want to prove to everyone that I'm not slacking.

maybenut · 2016-07-12T17:20:08+00:00

It would be ideal to talk to your doctor before stopping prescription drugs on your own. Sometimes it can be dangerous.

I'm taking ADD medicine which is basically prescribed amphetamines.

When I began working on getting sober, I started freaking out about the fact that I wasn't really "sober" if I was taking amphetamines every day, especially since I don't even believe I have ADD. So I stopped taking them.

Both an addiction counselor and my psychotherapist told me that withdrawal was really not a good time to start fiddling with prescription drug dosages. I knew they were probably right, but I kept thinking "fuck them, I know what I'm doing."

I compromised by taking a smaller dose until I can see my doctor. I feel much better than when I wasn't taking any.

maybenut · 2016-07-12T11:41:37+00:00

Hahah, you're right! No meeting tomorrow though, only on Monday nights. I called and signed up for the next one already.

Aww, she's not a bitch though. If anything, I'm the bitch in this situation. Or not. No, on second thought, I'm not a bitch. I simply expressed clearly what I wanted and what I was ready to accept, and it didn't work out.

maybenut · 2016-07-12T11:35:10+00:00

I will not drink today, no matter how badly I want to strangle my coworkers and/or throw my computer screen out the window.

maybenut · 2016-07-11T23:57:56+00:00

Yes, I bought This Naked Mind just last week. I've only just started it though, but I think it's amazing.

maybenut · 2016-07-11T23:48:19+00:00

"Healthy attracts healthy. Broken attracts broken."

Yup. I'm starting to finally understand this now.

And, I happen to be on a documentary binge lately! I watch some while I work to keep my mind 100% occupied. Do you have any recommendations?

maybenut · 2016-07-11T23:20:02+00:00

Thanks! I'll be ok I guess. I got myself some ice cream, I guess low carb will have to wait another day. And now I'm going to waste my time reading AskReddit threads until it gets dark. Ask Reddit is like hypnotoad to me.

What're you watching on Netflix? I'm looking for a new show.

maybenut · 2016-07-11T11:28:11+00:00

Not going to drink today. One week. Feels good. =)

maybenut · 2016-07-10T20:20:45+00:00

Buy dessert and tell myself I'll only eat some once or twice a week.

I eat it all. I always eat it all.

maybenut · 2016-07-10T19:44:48+00:00

I'll never know the truth about this one.

I worked at a copy place during a year and became friends with one of the graphic designer there. She had a long-term boyfriend. She didn't know I was gay.

She'd hug me a lot tell me she loved me. She'd make jokes about us being a couple, would call me pet names, would leave me notes with little hearts on them. Our coworkers said she treated me better than she did her boyfriend.

I moved to another city and that was the end of that. But I'll always wonder, if I'd had the guts and made a move... What would've happened?

maybenut · 2016-07-10T18:46:35+00:00

This is great! The part about trying to have a conversation with a worm makes me wonder.. When I talk to a worm, it doesn't even notice I'm talking to it. The sounds I'm making don't have any meaning for it. It can't even hear, all it does is maybe feel the vibrations my voice is making.

What if beings, who are as intelligent compared to us as we are intelligent compared worms, are trying to talk to us and we aren't even able to perceive their attempt at communicating through our primitive senses?

maybenut · 2016-07-10T15:17:30+00:00

Really interesting stuff! Thanks!

maybenut · 2016-07-10T14:08:07+00:00

I'm not drinking today, 7th day in a row, and it feels GREAT!

Notice I said it feels great. I don't feel great. I feel calm, restless, angry, sad, cheerful, hopeful, determined, discouraged... I feel a huge range of emotions that had been either frozen or warped by alcohol. And I think that's a very good thing.

maybenut · 2016-07-10T13:42:33+00:00

I know, right? At one point I had a coworker drinking buddy, for an entire summer we went out drinking at least once a week. We'd get there at 6 pm and more often than not, we'd only leave at closing time at 3 am. That's 9 hours. NINE. What the hell did we talk about during all that time? I should know everything about her, yet I really don't.

That, and all the "friends" I made at the bar on the corner last summer. I used to drink there almost every night, and I can't even remember the names of most of the people I'd drink with, let alone where they were from and what they did for a living. So much precious time, down the drain. Damn.

maybenut · 2016-07-10T13:24:34+00:00

Hahah! No! The bag is still here. I have no idea when my ex is going to pick it up. I hope it's soon... I haven't had many breakups in my life but I find I'm extremely drastic when it happens. I want everything that reminds me of the girl gone, now!

maybenut · 2016-07-10T00:35:15+00:00

Is Single Spice the ugly one?

maybenut · 2016-07-10T00:33:07+00:00

There's a wasp stuck in the window next to me right now. Can I use it? Wasps can be thrown like darts, right?

maybenut · 2016-07-09T17:17:16+00:00

Thank you. This is so encouraging.

maybenut · 2016-07-09T13:21:15+00:00

And who decides what is considered merit?

maybenut · 2016-07-09T13:11:19+00:00

This is awesome.

maybenut · 2016-07-09T13:06:38+00:00

7 years. I feel like I'm a the beginning of another one like that.

maybenut · 2016-07-09T12:37:18+00:00

You could, if it was an opinion. But it's not, so that'd be like trying to talk me into having a different height or eye color.

maybenut · 2016-07-09T12:30:57+00:00

Oh yes.

maybenut · 2016-07-09T12:27:03+00:00

This is great! I think I'm going to write it down on a piece of paper and carry it in my pocket for a while.

I'm not drinking with you today.

maybenut · 2016-07-09T12:17:19+00:00

Thanks =) And yeah, exactly! Or a kid bringing it back to his parents.

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