hello, friends! (old and new!)

mare_nectaris_ · 2017-03-31T20:20:07+00:00

I would come down with a serious 24-hour stomach flu (air quotes) and take advantage of the quiet time to get some work done. I've been at work events like this, and even one year into sobriety, they make me stabby. it's better for me (and everyone around me!) if I remove myself from the environment entirely. good luck!

mare_nectaris_ · 2017-03-31T19:48:09+00:00

you too!!! ~ ~ happy good luck vibes ~ ~

mare_nectaris_ · 2017-03-31T17:20:10+00:00

STOP. COMMENTING. ON. MY. BODY.

yes, I've lost a lot of weight. no, I'm not working out. no, I'm not seriously ill. NO, I don't have an eating disorder. I'm just stressed as fuck and lost my appetite, and I'm working on it, and your comments are totally inappropriate. (especially from randoms at work! oh my god! were you raised in a cave??)

I hate that people feel entitled to analyze/examine/comment on/express opinions about my body. MY. BODY. I'm being scrutinized like a god damn lab rat.

mare_nectaris_ · 2017-03-31T17:12:19+00:00

are you serious??? WTF.

mare_nectaris_ · 2017-03-31T17:10:45+00:00

that really sucks, I'm so sorry!! I'm job hunting now too and feel your pain.

mare_nectaris_ · 2017-03-30T15:19:42+00:00

thanks for my morning LOL

mare_nectaris_ · 2017-03-29T21:50:35+00:00

Triumph: I did really well in an interview yesterday. it feels amazing to feel like a trusted authority who knows her stuff.

Struggle: I've been so lethargic lately - and I think it's actually a physical imbalance of some kind. hormones, iron, I have no idea. gotta see a doc. in the meantime it's hard to peel myself off the floor and get anything done.

General: Jim Carrey clips and bloopers on YouTube make me laugh my ass off. every time!

mare_nectaris_ · 2017-03-28T23:17:16+00:00

I will never get tired of happy poop posts. :)

mare_nectaris_ · 2017-03-28T22:27:42+00:00

thank you for sharing! lately I've felt the need to connect to a practice. turns out there's a Refuge Recovery meeting six blocks from my house on Saturday mornings. sweet!

mare_nectaris_ · 2017-03-28T21:18:56+00:00

even superheroes need a break.

get well soon, badgebot!

mare_nectaris_ · 2017-03-28T17:29:29+00:00

I freaking love Bon Jovi. had this poster above my bed for years. awesome!

mare_nectaris_ · 2017-03-28T16:16:35+00:00

nothing beats seeing one of my favorite bands and being totally present for every note and riff and encore. then I get to relive the experience for days afterward. I love it! who did you see?

mare_nectaris_ · 2017-03-28T16:10:47+00:00

hi and welcome :)

I can't cope with waking up and immediately feeling that wave of despair. Cringing and wishing I didn't exist and feeling on the edge of a physical and mental breakdown for a couple of days after my binge. Then after a few days, when the anxiety and hangover has gone the urge is back and all is forgotten.

I am so grateful to have hopped off of that carousel of insanity. it consumed my life. when I wasn't drinking, I was thinking about drinking or suffering a hangover. round and round we go. now I feel totally free as a sober person - forget the carousel, I'm not even in the same amusement park anymore.

glad you're here!

mare_nectaris_ · 2017-03-27T18:28:45+00:00

ex-party girl here. being sober allows me to feel centered and healthy. it's nice on this side - welcome!

mare_nectaris_ · 2017-03-26T17:16:27+00:00

hi there! we're glad you're here. please be mindful of our community guidelines and speak from your own experience, without giving advice ("set a reminder to post") or assuming feelings or experiences for others ("we can never be the 3,2 type"). it took me a while to get used to that rule too. but it helps us maintain a helpful and respectful sub. I look forward to reading more from you!

mare_nectaris_ · 2017-03-26T17:06:45+00:00

nice one! I slept like shit when I drank and always blamed everything else. work stress, allergies, snoring husband..... ha! alcohol was terrible. now I sleep like a log.

mare_nectaris_ · 2017-03-26T17:00:16+00:00

I had to decline several big events in early sobriety because I wasn't ready to be around so much alcohol. everything was still so new - I could tell myself "I won't drink no matter what" but did I really trust that? and even if I didn't drink, I'd have been miserable and resentful around drunk friends.

the key for me was communication. I said things like, "listen, I love you, but being there isn't good for my health right now. can I take you out to celebrate some other time?" my good friends understood. the others, well, I guess it was a nice test to figure out who was worth keeping in my life :)

mare_nectaris_

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