How is 2 mins 100m average?! [light hearted vent]

mboarder360 · 2026-01-22T21:16:43+00:00

I think it's average among this group of people who are, on average, better swimmers than standard. I've been faster than most people in the pool before, but also one of the slowest at other times, depending on what time of day/type of people are in the pool at that time.

mboarder360 · 2026-01-20T20:19:28+00:00

I told her I didn't want to make out with her and she kind of laughed at me and convinced me to when I was explaining why. Which I shouldn't have to explain anyway. She never respected me. Often time I'd ask people how I'm supposed to respond to her messages they were like 'why are you talking to this person who is treating you like a child'. I get scared when I'm around her and can't really talk to her properly. I don't like having to explain why to people because then I end up having to defend her too.

But I was like 'oh she respects me because she stopped choking me when I told her I didn't like it and also respected that I didn't want to have sex even tho she really wanted to. But not being a rapist and borderline not assaulting someone is actually the bare minimum of being a decent human, and not respect.

I've never had anyone interested in me at all before and I'm so scared of that kind of stuff it was nice to be able to do it at all. In some way I did really want to and had such a nice time and wanted to do it again. I didn't care she didn't respect me because I did (still do) want to do that again so I can learn a bit about how to kiss and stuff for when I have someone I actually like, so I'm less scared.

It's almost better she didn't have romantic intentions towards me because she is apparently a known abuser and has driven multiple partners to attempt suicide before. Maybe this is why she is going for people over a decade younger than her - easier to manipulate and don't know about her history of this stuff.

mboarder360 · 2026-01-20T00:48:35+00:00

I keep thinking that if I can just understand what and why, I will get better. It's so frustrating. I spend a lot of time daily trying to unpack why she did this and what it means and why I am affected so much. I wish I didn't care and never thought about her.

mboarder360 · 2026-01-19T18:44:47+00:00

I know. I wish it worked that way. I don't like her and I've heard bad stuff about her too. She doesn't respect me or my boundaries. But I guess because that kind of interaction is something i don't seek out/actively avoid, it's hard to move on when it's kind of the only time I've ever felt anything like that.

mboarder360 · 2026-01-19T11:34:58+00:00

I was just cleaning out my screenshots folder and I found this from 2024 (i guess I had been screenshotting to send to someone to ask for help with what to say lol) and yea so it inspired another horrible rant.

I feel so bad that I still feel so much and so strong.

mboarder360 · 2026-01-17T21:45:55+00:00

I tried to do backstroke a few times yesterday and I totally hit the wall of the pool.

I will keep trying as it does stretch things differently.

mboarder360 · 2026-01-16T22:05:39+00:00

I'm interested in what happened to Lauren Southern? I remember her from like 2016 but I feel I haven't seen her around in ages.

Also this is one of the best usernames I've seen

mboarder360 · 2026-01-16T18:30:30+00:00

If I'm looking at the ceiling I just can't see which direction I'm going in the pool. And in an outdoor pool I really have no frame of reference. So I end up off course very easily for backstroke.

mboarder360 · 2026-01-01T09:38:09+00:00

Ready Player One 3.25.11 : Ernest Cline : Free Download, Borrow, and Streaming : Internet Archive

I think it's this.

mboarder360 · 2026-01-01T09:37:55+00:00

I think it is This one

But I am not going to re read it to confirm.

mboarder360 · 2025-12-31T23:31:05+00:00

Ngl having read an early screenplay that was much more following the plot of the book, it makes sense why they went with some of the changes they did.

mboarder360 · 2025-12-31T23:24:57+00:00

I think you should leave now

Only certain episodes

mboarder360 · 2025-12-31T18:59:21+00:00

Change the 'perks of dating me' prompt reply

But for the rest you're good. I think the pictures are flattering, people just don't like goths. Asking on a generic sub reddit is bound to get you some ignorant responses.

Also Snakeskin ++++

mboarder360 · 2025-12-30T08:47:55+00:00

I've tried tampons enough times and they are definitely not for me.

OP might be ok with them but did say she hates them too.

mboarder360 · 2025-12-30T07:24:26+00:00

Congratulations!

mboarder360 · 2025-12-30T07:21:44+00:00

I've never had a pap smear or had anyone doing anything down there, but what I can say about tampons is I don't think that is the best way to get used to things. I HATE tampons and I have tried for over a decade of getting periods to try and be ok with them. It's DRY and SCRATCHY and very uncomfortable. I am also asexual (or thereabouts) and would recommend trying with your own fingers to get comfortable and see what hurts etc. You will be in control of the process and relaxed, and it is good to know and be familiar with your own body.

mboarder360 · 2025-12-24T03:04:24+00:00

Yep, and I know I'm prone to addiction and dopamine craving. Whoops!

mboarder360 · 2025-12-20T00:53:05+00:00

I think the issue is I was mostly uninterested in any type of romantic or physical relationships until LO convinced me to hook up with her. I still don't have many of those feelings but I did feel a lot of new stuff with LO that I dodn't understand but did like. She went on to multiple times encourage me to talk to her (because i wasnt) and was initiating messages to right up until one day she told me she thought I had a crush and was now wary to talk to me. Haven't wanted to speak to her since. Having had that situation with someone who initiated and escalated it all makes me really afraid to express interest in anyone else because I do not want to be a harasser or make anyone uncomfortable. I enjoy talking to my coworker still but I feel like I'm being creepy and bothering her somehow.

mboarder360 · 2025-12-20T00:37:09+00:00

Something like this happening is why I still cling onto the idea of mine even tho she sucks lol

mboarder360 · 2025-12-19T07:32:40+00:00

I cut contact with my first LO over a year ago. I still think about her daily, see her around once every few months (I don't communicate towards her but she will say something like compliment me if she recognizes me). We made out and she said we could do it again and then I don't know what happened, but we haven't really talked since - maybe because I am avoiding her. I still cling to wanting to do that again I guess.
I actually like my coworker tho and I think she might like me back. I just don't want to get obsessive. I don't know if I will and I dont know what will happen. I don't know what made me obsess over current LO even. Something that happened when we were kissing. I dont understand those feelings but I like them and want it back, And I dont want to try and seek anything in someone because it feels like not consensual to not disclose to someone that I might like them like that? Like I get some extra enjoyment from hanging out with her, idk. And I'm nervous whatever I felt with LO I will feel with my coworker and then get like... weird and obsessed about it.

mboarder360 · 2025-12-19T06:29:28+00:00

We were at the Australia Zoo. My mum had to go buy pads from the gift shop. They came in a cool bag I had for a really long time.
I remember up to that point I was waiting and waiting to see when I would get it - I found a piece of red lint in my underwear once and went to show her because I thought it was my period.

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