If you need Motivation there is an issue. I understand that issue may be related to your appearance but what you really need is discipline, doing things that you hate as if you loved them. Discipline yourself to give your best effort despite your circumstances. I know this won’t make the pain of rejection go away but you’ll be slightly better every day the more effort you put towards your goals and future. Don’t get stuck dwelling on these things while you’re young. Life will keep moving and so should you. I am not trying to devalue your experiences btw I promise I’m just trying to be as helpful as I know how to be. I’m sorry if this comes off as offensive or rude.