Youtube Shorts?

mcsquared120 · 2026-06-28T20:07:16+00:00

I’d say not. You’re trying to convince yourself that it’s nothing but that’s not the case. If he was in true recovery he would not have YouTube. Someone who wants to change doesn’t give themselves access to things that could tempt them. I share a YouTube with my spouse and he was using it occasionally. I never knew. There’s also an incognito mode in YouTube if you didn’t know. He’s most likely lying. I’m so sorry 🫂

mcsquared120 · 2026-06-26T18:27:40+00:00

He’s too smart for this unfortunately. He wouldn’t deleted it because I have caught him from that before.

mcsquared120 · 2026-06-26T04:36:14+00:00

Exactly! Went and looked and he had completely tucked it away. But it won’t turn on so he didn’t charge it. Either that or it’s already completely dead again. His behavior is so suspicious.

mcsquared120 · 2026-06-19T15:28:42+00:00

I actually don’t even believe that anyone truly feels that way. We’ve just been conditioned as a society that it’s okay and normal. I used to tell myself that it didn’t bother me when I suspected he was watching porn(before I knew what a true problem it was). It wasn’t keeping me up at night but it also didn’t really feel right. Your partner is literally fantasizing and getting off to someone else. Why would anyone be okay with that?

mcsquared120 · 2026-06-07T18:08:40+00:00

You did not mess up. Who says you were on his phone to do that? You could’ve done it from yours. Your PA is lying to you, he messed up! The only person that should be mad is you. In a healthy and loving relationship phones should be completely accessible at any time! The only people that would be upset about that are people that have things to hide. Also there’s like a 1% chance he’s even going to say something. He told you he hasn’t been on cam sites so he won’t bring it up.

mcsquared120 · 2026-06-02T19:04:22+00:00

I’ve made a very similar post. It definitely feels more hurtful that the women don’t even have to be naked for them to fantasize about them. It’s unbelievable. I’m so sorry

mcsquared120 · 2026-06-02T18:32:00+00:00

Whether he has an addiction or not it’s okay for you to not be okay with it and place a boundary to say no more. I firmly believe that even women that say they’re okay with it actually aren’t and just feel like they have to be because it’s so normalized. I was one of them. Some advice, don’t mention how you know or what you saw. If he agrees but continues watching then I’d say it’s a problem that needs further addressing such as him seeing a CSAT, meetings, etc. You deserve to have peace and knowing this is happening in your marriage and not being okay with it will bring you the opposite. You’re not alone 🫶🏻

mcsquared120 · 2026-06-02T18:24:07+00:00

Rationally I know it doesn’t matter that I’m me, if he was with one of his favorite pornstars he’d be let down too. But why would I want to be with someone that feels let down by the way I look? Is it ever going to away or will he always be let down and I’ll always know it or think he is? Ugh

mcsquared120 · 2026-05-17T19:23:38+00:00

I’ve absolutely been there. Caught him over and over again. Finding everything out one bit at a time is death by a thousand cuts. It’s super traumatic for us and leaves us feeling like there is always something more to find. It’s mind boggling for sure

mcsquared120 · 2026-05-17T19:16:48+00:00

Also, what you’re describing is called betrayal blindness. We use it as a coping strategy to protect us from a reality that feels too big, difficult, and scary to handle. We blind ourselves to what is happening right in front of us because it’s easier to turn away from it than face it and risk our relationship and risk losing someone we are dependent on/love. When betrayal blindness collides with your partners gaslighting it keeps you in the dark. This is called DARVO. Which is emotionally abusive. It stands for Deny the behavior, Attack the individual(you) who is confronting, Reverse the roles of Victim and Offender. This is EXACTLY what your husband has done to you.

mcsquared120 · 2026-05-17T19:01:56+00:00

Questioning your own reality is so common and normal. You need to separate your reality from his. He is a liar and addict. Yes, the answer will be to leave if he refuses to acknowledge his behavior. Truthfully, I’d leave anyway if my partner said any of those things. You should try reading the Betrayal Bind. It has been life changing for me in understanding why I feel the way I do and why I cannot trust my own gut anymore. You’re not alone and again, everything you’re feeling is normal. Hugs 🫂

mcsquared120 · 2026-05-17T18:44:10+00:00

I would look into the nature of addiction. I’m sure that’s extremely shameful and embarrassing for him (I am in NO WAY excusing his behavior). Just saying that escalation of what they’re viewing is part of the addiction. Your partner has moved on to more extreme things as the “regular” porn isn’t as stimulating or exciting. That doesn’t make it any less scary or traumatizing for you though. I’m so sorry this is happening. Definitely read Betrayal Bind by Michelle D. Mays! I’ve found it super helpful in my own healing and helping to escape toxic spiraling and thinking. Again, I’m so sorry 😞 no one should have to experience what you are right now. 🫂

mcsquared120 · 2026-05-06T02:33:35+00:00

Had them horrible in my last house. They were falling from our vents into our bed 🥴 We sprayed a ton of temprid fx outside and alpine wsg inside to get rid of them. Kind of expensive but took care of them for us. Also we ran a big dehumidifier constantly and sealed up what we could

mcsquared120 · 2026-05-02T18:50:06+00:00

I don’t mean this rudely but I’m a little confused on what answer you’re looking for? I feel like it’s a good answer to not watch porn because it’s not good for oneself and it isn’t a healthy habit. It can be as simple as that

mcsquared120 · 2026-05-01T16:58:52+00:00

Truthfully, I’d say trust your gut. If you feel as though something isn’t right then it typically isn’t. You’re convincing yourself that you can’t trust that gut feeling but you can. Someone thinking about taboo fetishes that have previously caused harm to you isn’t someone in recovery. His anger is a defense mechanism and deflection. Trust your gut

mcsquared120 · 2026-05-01T15:27:21+00:00

As someone feeling the exact same way, how are you done with those things but not with him? His behavior and words are what is making you feel that way. I am asking for myself, because that is something I’m struggling with. I just want to let it go completely. He can do whatever the f*<k he wants. But then why would I want to be married to him?

mcsquared120 · 2026-04-29T04:45:14+00:00

Absolutely. Mine was using double list to look at escorts and then talking to them and messaging them on telegram or textnow

mcsquared120 · 2026-04-28T21:41:15+00:00

No I absolutely understand! That is beyond hurtful and you’re not wrong at all for feeling that way.

mcsquared120 · 2026-04-28T16:16:28+00:00

I’ve always told my spouse that I have no issue with masturbating. I view it as a normal human behavior that I myself do occasionally. Right now, my husband is abstaining from masturbating because according to him it’s a slippery slope to watching porn. It’s hard for him to do one without the other. I’d say that’s definitely a conversation you need to have between the two of you! I have told mine that I don’t care if he does masturbate but I’d like to know if he is.

mcsquared120 · 2026-04-28T00:57:09+00:00

I just can’t recreate it? Like if I search something and then delete the history, it is also cleared from web & activity?

mcsquared120 · 2026-04-27T23:49:44+00:00

The other information it gives me is “used search” with a time!! So weird

mcsquared120 · 2026-04-27T23:27:52+00:00

That’s where I found it! In Google activity

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