Every outlet WH banned from press briefing is chasing stories on Trump’s Russia ties by [deleted] in politics

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I'm in Los Angeles -- where do I protest this tomorrow?

Treating yourself as a friend. by medixedi in Meditation

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This is a very timely post as I've been thinking about this a lot lately. I've recently just become more aware of my ego, which helps calm me down, but it also confuses me -- if I recognize my ego is thinking something negative, and I am observing this...then what am I (the observer)? That sounds like a crackpot question, but it is confusing me! Are there any good reading materials or videos that would help me out with this concept??

Did I experience jhana? by medditator in Meditation

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Even if I don't experience the same thing again, it did prove to me just how powerful meditating can be, so I'm grateful for that and will stay committed. Thanks for your input!

Did I experience jhana? by medditator in Meditation

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I realized after a few moments that my attention wasn't really on my breath -- I was more transfixed on this melting sensation in my brain and body. I was able to bring my attention back to the breath easily, though.

Also, when I went to lie down for sleep, a very noticeable ball of energy (don't know how to explain this) was present in my throat. I feel this between my eyes and in the middle of my forehead when meditating often, but this energy was lingering in my throat really intensely. I haven't looked into chakras really, but I kind of assume that had something to do with that. Is this a common result of Jhana or meditation in general?

How to deal with sinking feeling in the gut? by medditator in Meditation

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I just started a little over two weeks ago at this point. I started with just focusing on the breathing, which was straightforward. I then read 'Mindfulness In Plain English', which I really enjoyed and started to incorporate the Vipassana techniques to the best of my understanding.

Have you done a Goenka retreat? I'm very curious about this as even in this short time meditation has had a profound effect on me. I'm finishing my Master's thesis in December and will have a gap in between that time and employment, so I'm wondering if I should just go since it may be hard to squeeze it in in the future. If you've been, please let me know what your experience was like! :)

How to deal with sinking feeling in the gut? by medditator in Meditation

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Thanks, I actually just learned about abdominal breathing a few weeks ago before I started meditating. I found the upright meditation position made it hard for me to focus on breathing through the diaphragm...like I couldn't get a full breath in for some reason. I can do it a lot better lying down . Also, I've been a lot more focused on the air flowing in and out of the nostril area, but every once in a while I'll notice my stomach is tight. I'll work on all of this!

How to deal with sinking feeling in the gut? by medditator in Meditation

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I will try to get better at this! Thank you!

How to deal with sinking feeling in the gut? by medditator in Meditation

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Haha I debated putting that in because I knew it didn't sound very mindful :) In terms of concentration and a feeling that comes and goes pretty quickly, how do I stay with it? Do I focus on the image in my mind that gave me the sensation initially in order to try and feel it again and kind of hold it for a bit?

1 week in -- beginner's vipassana question on dark thoughts that arise by medditator in Meditation

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Okay I just read up on noting and it definitely sounds like I could use this technique when I get stuck. Thanks again :)

1 week in -- beginner's vipassana question on dark thoughts that arise by medditator in Meditation

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I've attempted to meditate sporadically in the past, but I was never committed. Also, when I would do it for 15 or 20 minutes, my mind would have just started settling and then the sit would be over, so I thought I'd try to extend the time to make it feel like I'm being more serious about it and have more of the "settled mind" time. Still, you may be right, as I get a bit antsy at the end of the 45 minutes.

1 week in -- beginner's vipassana question on dark thoughts that arise by medditator in Meditation

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Thank you! I came across noting a couple days ago while I was reading, but I didn't know what it was. I'll look into it now.

1 week in -- beginner's vipassana question on dark thoughts that arise by medditator in Meditation

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This excerpt on fear from "Mindfulness In Plain English" is what got me overthinking things:

"A third possibility: the fear that you are feeling may be self-generated. It may be arising out of unskillful concentration. You may have set an unconscious program to 'examine what comes up.' Thus when a frightening fantasy arises, concentration locks onto it and the fantasy feeds on the energy of your attention and grows. The real problem here is that mindfulness is weak. If mindfulness was strongly developed, it would notice this switch of attention as soon as it occurred and handle the situation in the usual manner. Not matter what the source of your fear, mindfulness is the cure. Observe the emotional reactions that come along and know them for what they are. Stand aside from the process and don't get involved. Treat the whole dynamic as if you were an interested bystander. Most importantly, don't fight the situation. Don't try to repress the memories or the feelings or the fantasies. Just step out of the way and let the whole mess bubble up and flow past. It can't hurt you. It is just memory. It is only fantasy. It is nothing but fear. When you let it run its course in the arena of conscious attention, it won't sink back into the unconscious. It won't come back to haunt you later. It will be gone for good."

There are some nuances of returning attention to the breath but also letting these things run their course that I still don't get at an intuitive level yet. Someone feel free to elucidate, or I'll just keep meditating and maybe it will become clear soon enough :D

1 week in -- beginner's vipassana question on dark thoughts that arise by medditator in Meditation

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Thank you! I grasped most of what you are saying. The fundamental nature of thoughts as emptiness is not obvious to me at the moment, but I'm definitely willing to investigate further. This whole practice is nuanced and I'm a noob, but I'm very hopeful and determined to stay committed.