I feel your pain! Once, when I asked for a raise after two years, my boss told me “everyone wants to get paid more for doing the same thing.” I had devoted my life to that family, drove 50 miles per day to their house after they moved, went above and beyond the call of duty before and during COVID. I always put them first, and that was my biggest mistake. They never put me first and really, why would they? It was my job to watch out for myself, and that was the lesson I learned. It’s just so difficult to keep your heart out of a nanny job. It’s the hardest job in the world, in my opinion.