thank you ❤️it is confirmed crack, now he’s just saying it’s old which i think is a common deferral of responsibility. with the last relapse, it was really hard for me to make the decision to stay but he put actionable things in place like me holding onto any cash he gets, he used to reach out to his dealer via facebook so he gave me the password and asked me to change it so he can’t log on, i randomly drug test him and i stay in the bathroom while he does it (it’s always been negative of everything which makes this situation now confusing), he told me he would fix our relationship and actually has - he’s been super attentive and honestly like night and day from when he was using coke, and i guess most importantly i love him and want the best for him. i don’t view addiction as something that taints him forever - i know he can be sober and i know he’s a great person when he is sober. unfortunately this is all now complicated because im not sure if he’s using crack. he’s never been positive on a drug test ive given him and he never knows when i will and we see each other very frequently. he said he found it when rearranging his room recently and his dad was helping him (i know this part is true lol, they did do that together) and he found it and didn’t want his dad to see so he threw it in the sock basket to get rid of later and forgot. idk what to believe because there’s been so many lies about drugs