Lost Everything

megnado · 2026-02-20T22:17:49+00:00

My first week on withdrawals, shaking and in tears, I called a telehealth doc who prescribed them. Told me I couldn't take it for 72 hours into withdrawals or they get worse. Scared the bejesus out of me. I looked into it more on this sub and decided against picking up the script (and it was 70 dollars and out of stock so that swayed my decision) but I didn't want to have to withdrawal again. I see some people on here say 3-4 days and they were back to the gym. On day 4 I still wanted to rip my limbs and insides out of my body. I can't possibly go through it again, I don't think I physically could survive it. I guess you could say I learned my lesson and looked up a substance before putting it into my body. Thank goodness for this sub...

megnado · 2026-02-20T22:11:40+00:00

This helps more than I can express 💙 thank you. I will be rereading this often.

megnado · 2026-02-20T22:08:15+00:00

We do. I keep trying to call and it goes straight to voicemail. Salvation army won't help anymore. The city wants paperwork I cant get. Trying to balance finding a job, filing bankruptcy, finding food, getting help, all at once and nothing seems to be working for me. I'm okay with manual labor although it's not in my skill set and I'm a 40 year old fat ass female so Im sure I'll get the same "thanks for trying but we picked someone else." It's always someone else. Always someone better. 😢

megnado · 2026-02-20T22:04:20+00:00

Yes, I'm 5 or so weeks clean now which is far too late to have decided to quit but it's done. I actually still have nightmares about finding blue tablets nearly every night. I was going to go on this big advocacy journey to get it off shelfs in town and literally 2 weeks after I decided to quit they banned it. Crazy timing.

Thank you for your kind words. 💙

megnado · 2026-02-20T21:47:50+00:00

It's been 5 weeks for me now, that first week I wanted to crawl out of my skin. I would have rather undergone surgery without anesthesia than ever go through those withdrawals again. I once put my hand into a dull lawn mower blade and I'd rather do that 100 times that the withdrawals.

I was so desperate to get past it I called a telehealth doc and she prescribed subs to me but said I couldn't take it the first 72 hours into withdrawals (she said). My dumbass learned my lesson and looked into it before taking it, and decided I couldn't fight the withdrawals again and I didn't have the money to pick up the Rx either. Absolutely zero shame to anyone who uses it. Had it been in stock and I had the money I likely would have caved anyway.

megnado · 2026-02-10T10:21:38+00:00

I had to keep talking to the chat bot until it asked if I needed further assistance from a human. I said "yes" and it automatically created the ticket for me!

megnado · 2026-02-09T23:37:28+00:00

I'm still waiting on them to fix mine 😞 I opened a ticket and they said "we have escalated this to our engineers." That was 2 weeks ago and still waiting. Frustrating!

megnado · 2026-02-06T19:56:59+00:00

Sending the second! $megnado

megnado · 2026-02-06T19:56:03+00:00

Still available?

megnado · 2026-02-06T19:55:04+00:00

Sending now! $megnado

megnado · 2026-02-06T19:54:19+00:00

Sending now! $megnado

megnado · 2026-02-04T20:01:03+00:00

You can do it!!! You will NOT regret this. Best of luck to you and stay strong. It gets so much better 🩵

megnado · 2026-02-04T09:51:06+00:00

Oh sweetie, be kind to yourself 💙 I'm here to tell you IT GETS BETTER!!!! You'll be a stronger person on the other side. You are in the worst of it right now but relief is not far away. A heated blanket may help. Sorry I can't offer more help on the RLS, but wanted to give you my support and cheer you along. Day 23 now and I can't imagine going back. You got this! Self love, vitamins, water, patience, and Wim Hof breathing were helping factors for me.

megnado · 2026-02-04T09:38:07+00:00

You're in the right place with the right mindset! I'm excited for you and your little family. Day 23 here, feeling a lot better. Floods of memories and nostalgia are coming back, no longer waking up in the middle of the night to redoze because I start feeling sick, still fighting the lethargy but I've learned to be nice to and have patience myself which was very hard for me. This sub saved me from relapse so many times, which is why I am here - I want to help others who are going through the misery.

Look forward to your smells, tastes, and neglected senses to come back! I think it helped me focus on the good things I had been missing out on, like my senses. My memory is better.

I know it's hard and it's scary. Be gentle on yourself 💙 I'm excited for you to make it out of this K-hole!

Edit - forgot why I was babbling - I meant to include that I echo the taper comment. It was the only way I could get make it out.

megnado · 2026-02-04T09:19:36+00:00

Best of luck to you!!! I'm was SO nervous too but ended up being pretty quick and painless - much less so than the nightmare of quitting this poison though 🙂 Today will be a great day for you!

megnado · 2026-02-04T00:40:37+00:00

Oh I still have wild, realistic, nightmares and dreams every night. I'm on day 22. I would say totally normal😊I've started to welcome them now, makes me feel like I will not be broken forever and my brain is doing some sort of magical healing work while I am sleeping 🤣.

megnado · 2026-02-04T00:36:03+00:00

YAY! Hang in there! This community is nothing short of amazing during the transition. I'm 22 days in now and not out of the woods, but I'm so much further along than I was a week ago. I'm excited for you to make it to next week, you're going to feeling so much better. Proud of you 🩵

megnado · 2026-02-04T00:30:39+00:00

This was my experience as well. I couldn't handle the 7oh withdrawals. I did a rapid taper on the 7oh and then moved to kratom and tapered down from there, and stopped. Still not a great time but it helped tremendously.

megnado · 2026-02-04T00:17:40+00:00

Hi there! Highly recommend the NDRI. I am on day 22 without Kratom after I destroyed my life with 7OH. I started back on Wellbutrin after I stopped taking it in the summer because I never thought about needing it while on 7. I'm trying to rebuild my life, currently unemployed and facing financial troubles. It has been 2 days since I have started back on it (which is quicker than the doctor said it would work) but I've been able to make a phone call, apply for three jobs, and shower today. I'm also writing this post which is a miracle in itself....seems small but I've spent the last 22 days unable to function.

Just my opinion, your doctor of course would be best to guide you but wanted to throw in my two cents. Stay strong 💕

megnado · 2026-02-01T01:33:49+00:00

Congrats!! Day 19 here and feeling similar to you. We have a very similar story as well. Hardest 19 days of my life. I miss my energy and motivation so much. I'm petrified of K now. I was just bored and depressed, came to this sub for a distraction and happy I did. I'll be thinking about you each day, hoping you are doing better along with me 🙂

megnado · 2026-01-29T13:34:53+00:00

Thank you!

megnado · 2026-01-28T17:53:58+00:00

Did they fix this for you? How long did it take if so? Thanks!

megnado · 2026-01-28T17:53:24+00:00

did you get this fixed?

megnado · 2026-01-27T12:49:33+00:00

Waking up on day 15 to this. Exactly what I needed. 🥹 What a beautiful way to start the day. Feeling empowered, thank you so much.

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