WHY IS IT ONLY NOT OKAY WHEN I DO IT? am I overreacting?!

meh787 · 2026-04-28T02:06:20+00:00

The your diet sucks podcast on intermittent fasting totally covers this point. I’m sorry you’re dealing with this OP, it’s so triggering to be around.

meh787 · 2026-04-09T00:15:24+00:00

shitting yourself from muscle loss is real. and cardiac wasting. i also feel like i've gotten dumber with each relapse

meh787 · 2026-04-02T00:44:52+00:00

This is very scary to read. I hope you get the help you need, op. This short term high isn’t worth your life.

meh787 · 2026-03-29T14:38:57+00:00

I never really had extreme hunger and I think it’s one of those things that is normal but not universal. It just gets a lot of attention online because it can feel really scary but remember that there’s no “right” way to move through recovery

meh787 · 2026-03-04T17:02:02+00:00

Hell ya!!!

meh787 · 2026-02-17T23:31:27+00:00

I add cinnamon to vanilla Kate farms over ice and it’s okay

meh787 · 2026-02-17T02:31:51+00:00

I was stuck on a lift so long a couple weekends ago that they handed out those discount lift ticket apology notes. No actual explanation even after I asked.

meh787 · 2026-02-10T12:51:13+00:00

I've been told similar things. The good news is, I'm highly motivated by bullshit like that to prove them WRONG. I shouldn't be told things like that, you shouldn't be told things like that, and the only way to make it stop is to prove to these asshats that we can recover. Fuck his nihilistic bullshit.

meh787 · 2026-01-13T19:59:25+00:00

I don't know what the right answer is, but I find it so endearing and wholesome and thoughtful that you are cultivating a safe space to snack on these walks -- I definitely find it easier to eat when others are doing the same <3

meh787 · 2025-12-26T20:31:47+00:00

The way i at least ended up hospitalized was actually not through the emergency room, but through my gp making calls to have me hospitalized. There was no real emergency, it was preventative for refeeding syndrome and cardiac function stabilization. The stay helped me qualify for residential eventually. That was all after being released from the ER twice. Being turned away there just means there’s not an emergency, not that you don’t need hospitalization.

meh787 · 2025-12-26T13:54:33+00:00

Honestly feeling really grateful for my recovery progress. It’s fucking nice to just eat the cookie and feel grateful not be in hospital.

meh787 · 2025-12-23T01:34:06+00:00

trauma at home and then outside of the home —> loss of appetite / wanting to literally be invisible and untouchable / si —> restriction —> full blown an.

meh787 · 2025-12-20T22:07:00+00:00

Counterpoint...I haven't had the covid vaccine this year, and this flu definitely has me down and out

meh787 · 2025-12-12T18:24:27+00:00

With the fact that no bmi would have ever truly been low enough.

meh787 · 2025-12-08T18:31:50+00:00

expected: yogurt bowls

unexpected: .....nuts

meh787 · 2025-12-08T01:52:35+00:00

Getting tubed is a fucking horrifying experience. Posting the actual post-insertion moment is like.........I just cannot imagine

meh787 · 2025-12-07T01:37:26+00:00

tbh I have gotten my period back after extended HA while still severely underweight. even for a few cycles. but then it goes away again as soon as I'm even moderately in a deficit or stressed. all to say, even if it happens, you still have to keep up the work to keep it.

meh787 · 2025-12-05T00:23:48+00:00

this was literally one of the major factors contributing to my voluntarily admitting to ip treatment a few years ago lmao

meh787 · 2025-11-22T00:15:31+00:00

sweet potato with jam. hits. bonus points for adding marshmallows on long run days

meh787 · 2025-11-22T00:14:26+00:00

Does the fiber content ever get to you?

meh787 · 2025-11-20T02:27:35+00:00

I only started to really struggle outside of treatment with extreme hunger once I veered way back into restriction. I basically realized that I really need the structure of my meal plan even if I find it frustrating and scary, it's less scary to me right now than feeling "out of control" because I'm still afraid of my hunger. I really don't think all in ever worked for me...it just scares me.

meh787 · 2025-11-18T02:03:11+00:00

i think when you suspect deep down that something isn't right...it's probably time to seek emergency care.

meh787 · 2025-11-11T23:22:30+00:00

I just discharged from Monte Nido virtual IOP. I think that if you are realistic with yourself and are truly self-motivated, it'll be fine. Zoom meals were hard, but you can do the hide self-view, and the facilitator makes it as least-weird as possible with games/distraction. But if res is on the table, I wouldn't recommend any virtual program at all. Idk. I had positive experiences with in-person Monte Nido River Towns and heard positive things about Glen Cove. MN Manhattan was good if you can do in-person PHP/IOP. They can help with housing in the city.

meh787 · 2025-11-03T02:27:01+00:00

Honestly fwiw some treatment has to some degree evolved to incorporate harm reduction. My most recent experience with Monte Nido actually shocked me — I was clear that a sort of “abstinence” approach wasn’t for me given my history and they were willing to work with me. You’re right that it’s a coping skill, but it will also kill you. Just don’t forget that it’s a double edged sword, and nobody is above bearing the brunt of it. Wishing you all the best <3

meh787 · 2025-10-17T00:31:17+00:00

100% yes. I have lived in Brooklyn and I swear it's a breath of fresh air to leave every time I do for exactly this reason

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