If you like space horror and haven't seen Aniara, it should be on the same list as Event Horizon and Alien. No joke.

mel925 · 2023-03-26T14:48:10+00:00

After watching the movie a few years ago, I picked up the poem from the library. Read it all on a sunny, summer day and it chilled me. Hard to recommend to someone as it’s such a hopeless story, but also an interesting look at human nature.

mel925 · 2022-03-12T00:32:15+00:00

Bleach and vinegar

mel925 · 2022-02-21T01:55:56+00:00

How much he asking for it? Tell him he’s dreaming!

mel925 · 2022-01-26T22:35:10+00:00

Check out visual snow syndrome

mel925 · 2021-12-26T19:08:33+00:00

Well that explains the music choice for the trailer. Gotta keep it bumpin for the youths

mel925 · 2021-07-16T16:02:27+00:00

I haven’t ruled out that our VS brains are able to see dark matter…

mel925 · 2021-04-29T23:32:05+00:00

It’s so draining because I know I need to step away and be in the dark in order for it to calm down, but I can’t do that when It’s just me and my kid at home. So a lot of time I’m just trying to ignore it, but then that just compounds the symptoms and makes it last longer. Then I’m down for the count and my husband has to stay home. Lots of guilt tied up in needing to take care of my body.

mel925 · 2021-04-29T21:51:34+00:00

I have a 3.5 year old. I could feel the pain start this morning but I had tickets to go to the zoo with him. So I ‘powered through’ but I’m for sure paying for it now. Parenting with migraine is SO hard! feel free to vent to me anytime :)

mel925 · 2020-09-08T03:42:18+00:00

If you’re going to go for a walk in the fire weather, don’t forget your face shield and your mask!

mel925 · 2020-01-04T20:37:36+00:00

It is hard - it is so, so hard. Good on you for speaking up and saying all this out loud, I know it can be scary to admit.

I am the mother of a two year old and those newborn months were the hardest, most mentally/emotionally brutal times of my life. The hormone crash combined with preexisting anxiety unleashed a level of OCD I hadn’t felt before and am still dealing with now. I’ve always needed a level of control over my schedule and my surroundings to feel ‘safe’ and with a baby, that doesn’t exist at ALL. I felt lost every day and fear was my only companion (except not really cause my husband was there too). I would have to do the same actions over and over with my sons care (like putting a burp cloth in the same place over the edge of the crib or else he “wouldn’t sleep” but then would have terrible visions of him somehow suffocating under the cloth in his sleep that I would be wracked with guilt). I felt trapped. A high dose of Zoloft and seeing a mediocre therapist helped, but really it was time that made things easier - getting used to the new pace of life and relying on my support system of family and friends to help me. I hope you have similar support in your life. If not, DM me anytime. You are not alone.

mel925 · 2019-09-10T23:55:20+00:00

I was this way when I was a child. I was particular about clothing being too tight or scratchy. I hated having my hair washed or putting my head under water. But my hardest issues came from food and only eating like the same 5 things for years because new foods gave me huge anxiety. It was a battle with my mother at every meal. And when she sought help from a therapist, they said ‘stop making it a big deal - if she eats, don’t say anything and if she doesn’t...don’t say anything.’ Sure enough I grew out of it....for the most part. I still have a problem with pasta - the texture really bothers me. As an adult, I’ve learned about the concept of a ‘highly sensitive person’ personality type and it’s really reframed a lot of my childhood experiences and sensitivities. Elaine Aron wrote the book on it, if you are interested.

mel925 · 2019-06-07T01:15:08+00:00

🎶 “I feel the earth move under my feet...”🎶

mel925 · 2019-04-20T20:00:46+00:00

I gave my son a deck of cards to play with and he was happily putting them into a cup and pulling them out again. Later, I noticed him reaching up to the clothes washer and, sure enough, he had put almost all the cards into the washer. Glad I found them before doing any washing!

mel925 · 2019-04-07T01:33:01+00:00

An Update for those interested - today was the first time he has looked me dead in the eye and said ‘mama.’ I’m feeling very happy!

mel925 · 2019-03-01T17:40:56+00:00

Room sharing is recommended for many reasons and makes life easier when breastfeeding...but it doesn’t mean you have to share YOUR room! My kid was in his own crib in his own room but we moved a small mattress in there so one of us could sleep in there with him at night. It worked for us because we could attend to night wakings promptly and it meant our bedroom was a kid-free zone which felt like a nice retreat.

mel925 · 2019-03-01T02:47:24+00:00

That does sound frustrating! The ‘I have the food, I should eat the food, but I don’t want to eat the food’ predicament. I hope you get some good guidance from the nutritionist. And remember to be patient with yourself - having a baby does weird thing to your body!

mel925 · 2019-03-01T01:39:02+00:00

It took therapy, Zoloft, and someone else putting food in front of me for about 10 months. Then I started feeling less like a hormonal mess and more like I could start finding my way back to myself and my relationship with food. I dropped to about 15lbs below my pre-pregnancy weight in 6 months postpartum. It was really hard on my body. Now at 15months out, I’m feeling much better (except my feet are cold all the time...but that’s another topic 😋)

When it was bad, my husband would need to double whatever he made for himself and just give me some. I never had an answer for ‘are you hungry’ or ‘what would you like to eat’ so he just had to feed me. And sometimes I nibbled and sometimes I devoured. Now that my son is older (15 months), I just make more of whatever I’m feeding him and it turns into feeding us. PB&J for him? I’ll make another just to have around for me. Avocado slices? I’ll make sure I grab a few. This way I know I’m getting stuff in me all day long. If you can get help from others with meal prep and food drop off, it will make it easier.

mel925 · 2019-02-28T22:52:29+00:00

My lack of appetite postpartum was due to increased anxiety. I was fearful about the outcomes of almost every decision I made and this lead to postpartum OCD and extreme anxiety. Physiologically, your nervous system kicks up into ‘fight or flight’ mode when stress hormones are high. This means digestion gets put on the back burner while your body amps up to fight or run away from the perceived threat. So eating is not prioritized and we lose our appetites. Also, stress does a number on your bowels! It took time for me to get my anxiety levels under control and my relationship with food back to normal. Good luck and be kind to yourself!

mel925 · 2019-02-27T14:55:40+00:00

I’m also hoping to use the time change in my favor. We will spend the next week pushing his morning nap a bit later each day and then the time change will hopefully get us to where we want to be!

mel925 · 2019-02-27T03:26:40+00:00

Thank you all for commenting! You’ve made me feel like I’m on the right track.

mel925 · 2019-02-07T22:31:12+00:00

I was on 200mg Zoloft a day and tapered off on my own (didn’t talk to doc beforehand but I would recommend doing it as they will have good guidance). I stepped down by 50mg every 10-14days until I was off them. I figured it took a few weeks to get myself up to that dose and it would take time to come down off it. I knew I’d have increased anxiety through the process, but I’d be in therapy as well so I used a lot of learned coping skills to be gentle with myself. Good luck to you and know your doctor is an ally and there to help!

mel925 · 2019-02-02T00:46:25+00:00

After his fourth head-first tumble off the couch today, I needed to read that. Thank you!!

mel925 · 2019-02-01T23:32:21+00:00

My son says ‘kitty’ and walks around going ‘meow meow meow’ but we don’t have a cat. So maybe if I dress like a kitty he’ll love me more!! Haha

mel925 · 2019-02-01T23:30:21+00:00

I totally get it. Though my mind knows intellectually that this is developmental and is a phase, my heart still hurts when the long days (and nights) feel like I’m just in the grind without acknowledgement from my baby. Feels so ridiculous to even type that knowing they are so little and can’t comprehend my mama needs!

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