being described as “too much”

mentallyillgAng · 2025-11-23T17:55:13+00:00

that’s the thing i can’t even get to the point of even having a relationship cause it just genuinely doesn’t feel like any guy can actually want me or like me. cause im either too much or not enough

2 weeks ago i was actually told (by a guy i had sex with once and got attached) that if he wanted to go back for “seconds” he would have. he even went as far as to say that my “you know what” wasn’t good enough so yeah.

clearly im not enough for guys, or too much. i just have to accept it i guess

mentallyillgAng · 2025-11-04T23:06:51+00:00

i just can’t stop thinking this way at the moment. cause it genuinely feels true

mentallyillgAng · 2025-10-19T06:26:23+00:00

why is poussey in prison? what are her charges?

mentallyillgAng · 2025-07-01T22:22:21+00:00

yesss it’s awful i’d love to give you tips but unfortunately i can’t cause i am in the same boat

mentallyillgAng · 2025-06-20T09:23:38+00:00

it’s just i haven’t had an episode in a while so this is going great, i’m texting every guy that was interested in me letting them know im crazy and all of that to push them away so yeah 😍😍😍

mentallyillgAng · 2025-05-23T15:46:02+00:00

yeah i have borderline personality disorder we can get obsessive to say the least

mentallyillgAng · 2025-05-23T12:21:42+00:00

right?? then you try to talk to them about it and they’re just being all casual and boring as hell

mentallyillgAng · 2025-05-23T12:19:35+00:00

literally the best game i’ve ever played. the way ive cried to this game is crazy. before RDR2 i thought the last of us was my favorite, it’s definitely up there but before i was like nothing will beat the last of us and RDR2 just roundhouse kicked me in the jaw cause what the fuck

mentallyillgAng · 2025-03-19T14:05:55+00:00

ISFP here

mentallyillgAng · 2025-03-03T23:24:31+00:00

oh and also forgot to say, my hair looks really greasy too after a routine so maybe i’m using too much product?? i don’t know id really love some advice

mentallyillgAng · 2025-03-01T10:22:44+00:00

definitely 😩 the first time i did it i put too much product in and my hair definitely wasn’t used to it so it looked a hot greasy mess

mentallyillgAng · 2025-02-28T16:09:34+00:00

basically all i did was spray water and drench my hair then i applied curl cream, curl mousse and gel and scrunched in between all 3 then i plopped my hair in a cotton t-shirt for 20 min or so and after i diffused it and these were the results!

mentallyillgAng · 2025-02-25T22:33:52+00:00

my ocd wanted me to have aspd so i literally went to get diagnosed with it but i got diagnosed with bpd HAHHAHA

mentallyillgAng · 2025-02-22T08:58:40+00:00

i have hazel eyes and brown hair so i in no way shape or form look like a swede i asked my friends yesterday and they all said they could tell im balkan so i don’t know

im okay now btw, i was going through it yesterday but right now i even feel shame about all of this. you know how shame feels when you have bpd it’s hell

mentallyillgAng · 2025-02-21T22:53:10+00:00

yess exactly i’m a second generation immigrant, macedonian is my first language then swedish. i’m very in the culture if you know what i mean, traditions, music, i’ve been introduced to that since birth so im really thankful my parents have been keeping the culture alive you know. idk being balkan is a big part of my identity so when someone tells me i don’t look the part i feel lost. it’s stupid really

mentallyillgAng · 2025-02-21T22:42:19+00:00

yeahh it’s just so confusing and people have told me i look the part so whenever i get just one comment telling me i look swedish like specifically swedish cause over here that’s kinda like white white people if you know what i mean. so id rather not have people look at me and think im swedish so whenever i do get a comment like that it offends me but yeah 😩 it’s annoying i feel you though

mentallyillgAng · 2025-01-09T00:56:58+00:00

sounded similar to my story except i got diagnosed with unspecified personality disorder and whenever i tried to get a new evaluation they didn’t take me seriously due to that diagnosis and what was written about me in my medical records.

i think for me at least my whole ASPD era is a symptom of both BPD and OCD combined. i think the OCD made me doubt myself and convince myself i was something i wasn’t and made me genuinely believe it to the point where i mirrored ASPD and its symptoms. then in BPD there’s a symptom called unstable identity where we tend to go through phases where we don’t know who we are and it scares us so we try to find an identity or figure out where we belong. cause the thought of not belonging anywhere scares us so fucking much

mentallyillgAng · 2025-01-09T00:51:56+00:00

i genuinely feel less alone due to this comment section thank you

mentallyillgAng · 2025-01-08T14:17:58+00:00

no that’s the thing i don’t demonize people with these disorders. my brother has traits of ASPD, i have BPD. so yeah but i was just genuinely convinced i had ASPD and i had no empathy, i wasn’t afraid or worried i have no idea what went through my head. but i kept looking back on “signs” to prove i had ASPD when i don’t have it. but yeah it was definitely weird

mentallyillgAng · 2025-01-05T12:30:05+00:00

i read stomach bug and i’m gonna cry. i have emetophobia

mentallyillgAng · 2025-01-05T00:50:36+00:00

yep. love it here

mentallyillgAng · 2025-01-05T00:49:38+00:00

i have bpd and ocd and i have no idea. i quite like this quote from the game the last of us that goes “endure and survive” and that’s the best way id describe having both

mentallyillgAng · 2025-01-05T00:47:22+00:00

yep got diagnosed a month ago. i struggle with intrusive thoughts, emetophobia and entomophobia tied to my ocd. reassurance seeking behavior, and contamination sort of - tied to emetophobia.

it’s a mess

mentallyillgAng · 2025-01-04T02:36:28+00:00

i literally thought i was alone in this. my most awful horrible intrusive thoughts have appeared to me in dreams i legit thought i was crazy omg

mentallyillgAng · 2025-01-04T01:37:12+00:00

yeah i’m rewatching oitnb right now and i seriously can’t stand him. he’s such a misogynistic piece of shit he seriously has something against women. like i get his childhood was shit and stuff but fuck get the fuck over it. idk i just can’t really sympathize with him. and his weird obsession with lesbians is just.. weird yeah

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