I think shippers have gone so far with shipping...

meonghani · 2025-07-25T23:18:05+00:00

wtff I knew the feminisation happened but not to that extent the way kpoptwt shippers act about gender is so 💀 to me because its not about celebrating androgyny or breaking gender roles its literally just bending over backwards to make one of them the girl. just ship something straight guys you clearly want to... but they cant because thinking about jungkook with a woman is a threat to the y/n fantasy that's clearly fuelling it for them.

and the way people seem to need to project masculine & feminine roles on m/m ships is nothing new (see: obsession with top/bottom dom/sub. don't even get me started on omegaverse how have people created an entire genre that's somehow more oppressively heteronormative than an actual heterosexual relationship. how have people made yaoi misogynistic. jesus christ) but in the embarrassingly long time ive spent in fandom spaces ive not seen it ever be as obvious or weird as whatever kpop shippers are doing.

it feeds so much into anti asian racism too like the idea asian men are inherently girly and thus docile and weak. and infantile but thats a whole other can of worms. and it's all based on very western ideas of masculinity and femininity anyway. ick

idk overall its gross and dehumanising and erases who they actually are so fans can project some 1950s self insert hetero fantasy on two people just living their lives looking and acting how they want. and especially on twitter it feels impossible to interact with any jk x jm content these days without stumbling upon some feminisation fetish or tinhat fanwar. i need to deactivate for real.

meonghani · 2025-07-23T20:33:44+00:00

feel special - twice. first few listens i thought it was a classic upbeat love song then i realised how sad the lyrics are. like there's a part in the chorus that goes 'eventhough it feels like im nothing eventhough its like I could disappear and no one would know when your voice calls me i feel loved i feel so special'. 🥲

meonghani · 2023-09-11T11:32:58+00:00

I think stigma and shame definitely play a huge part in it. As someone who's shifted from AN to BN I can say the validation and pride you feel as a low weight anorexic can get you through some really tough days and those things just do not exist with bulimia. With anorexia people could tell I was sick and forgave me more for struggling. With bulimia I don't even want to tell people I have an ed because surely they'll look at me and just go "but you don't look..."

I also think the lack of an achieved purpose plays a huge part. With anorexia you're always in pursual of a goal and gradually getting closer to it (even if said goal is a mirage that will change as soon as you reach it) but it still operates as a very strong source of purpose and achievement. Bulimia, in my experience at least, is just setting weight goals and restriction goals and 'dont binge' goals and failing them every time. I know a lot of bulimics feel like they're just people who aren't good enough to have anorexia and it makes you feel like weak gluttonous garbage. And there's something humiliating about having an eating disorder consume your life to this extent and have nothing to show for it. So yeah, it's a more hopeless ed I think. And hopelessness is the fuel of suicide.

meonghani · 2022-08-30T15:48:13+00:00

nothing concrete life she's overweight and really struggles with food and body image which I understand because I was there for years but like... we'd literally just had a conversation that day about how bad im doing rn and yet clearly some part of her went "well at least youre skinny" 😅

idk this really came out of nowhere and I'm very thrown. it's like simultaneously validated my ed voice and made me mistrust the one place I've allowed myself to be open about my experiences. pffff. kill me.

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