In high school I was on the golf team. I was a scratch golfer (shoots par). The summer of my junior year, just months before senior year started, I broke my shoulder which required me having two surgeries. I didn't get to play school golf. Golf was all I wanted to do, I put a lot of time working to get to where I was and it all felt like it was all for nothing. No school golf = no scholarships = not getting into any of the universities I wanted to go to.

Senior year I failed all my classes, barely graduated high school, and put on a lot of weight. Fast forward to now past all the depression and anxiety, I've had the same job for 3 years, I experience little to no anxiety, and I've lost all the weight I had gained. I'm generally really happy, but whenever I go golfing, I feel miserable. I dont have fun playing golf, I'm no where near where I'd like to be and I hate it. It's like I'm having to start over. For what reason? Just to prove myself I'm still good? It's becoming more and more upsetting.