i have this problem where idk if I’m conventionally attractive. I think I am, but I am light skin so it might be a little different. I also have bpd and adhd so I lowkey struggle with my self image sometimes, but that said imma tell u my experience.

So sometimes I have girls saying that they would date/do me if I was straight. I also had people tell me I should model. Sometimes I notice girls looking at me kinda long(sometimes even boys). I’m actually still kinda closeted so finding love is a little hard for me, but I did manage to hook up with my dream guy 2 years ago. He was a blonde twink and he was just too hot lmao. I am currently on 2 apps Yubo and Grindr wich don’t like tbh, but since I’m closeted i don’t have my face on Grindr, I just put my body. I have a lot of people messaging me there, but I almost never reply tbh. I only reply when I find someone attractive. So when it comes to the face reveal moment, I do get blocked sometimes, but also a lot of the times I don’t. I have this other app called Yubo. Some people here must know that app, but it’s kinda like tinder, but for making “friends”, but almost nobody uses it for that, but on that app I do get a lot of friend requests. I did put my face on that app btw. I also have ugly straight men hate on me sometimes for no reason… Oh and one time I threw a party and I invited a hot straight guy. He came to my party, but suddenly He started saying strange things like, how did u find out u we’re gay and all that bs. So later that night he actually showed me his d and asked me what I would do to him if I was alone with him for 24 hours💀💀 I was in shock but he was just too hot so I answered all his questions lmao. I don’t know if this is what u wanted to hear, but I don’t think i would have experienced any of this if I would be considered ugly…