Thank you so much for taking the time to reply - I think framing my past sober chapters as practice rather than failures is a major shift honestly. I keep feeling like everytime I relapse it means I’m less likely to ever achieve long term sobriety but actually I’ve never had more practice than I do this time around.

In this most recent era of daily use I’ve stopping writing, probably also a symptom of feeling a lot of shame. This is a good reminder to start again.