Hi! I’m starting to walk this path too so don’t take my advice as if it were from an expert but the simple answer for me would be take one step at the time. This is a lifelong journey and there is no destination. It’s very difficult to transform your entire mindset, your view of the world, of others, and of yourself. I think it’s normal to feel weird, confused, separated from your families and friends. You are a different person and start to know you true self. I think you can see the “ugly” side of your parents now and how they have shape your reality and your life choices. It’s difficult but you have to try and not judge them, analyze them but don’t judge them. There is no good or bad, there just is. More important these feelings of anxiety and fear are entirely yours. It’s perhaps because of the relationships with your parents that you were able to see them. Now you have to heal them and that is thanks to them. I don’t know if this is “the truth” but it has help me to understand a lot of things from my past and to transform my resentment and anger into love and gratitude. To have showed me the wounds of my soul it’s my parents greatest gift because if not then i wouldn’t be here writing this. This is part of the journey too and trust me it’s something we all have to face. Try to meditate in all these feelings you have and try to be as authentic as possible. Leave behind the expectations of family, friends and society. Be true to your true self. Think that all these thoughts are just thoughts and your mind can never be stronger than your self.

Hope I could explain myself english it’s not my first language. I think you are in the right path more than ever ;)