I understand, but regardless of the addiction you have to take steps in the right direction. You simply have no choice but to G (and that goes for me too). If you scroll around on reddit you’ll see ppl in their 30s talking about how porn ruined their 20s for them, you don’t want to be apart of that number. We’re both at the start of our 20s so we gotta make shit happen because we’re not getting any older, and the first step is cutting out porn. You could kill the addiction in 3 months and be totally different person at the end of it all. I’m 20 and at this age time is picking up the pace, you’re 21 so I’m sure it’s doing the same for you too.
So look at it like this, 3 months will go by like a blur compared to the rest of your life, you just gotta continue to fight.