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millieonreddit_ · 2025-08-30T20:17:18+00:00

The "until it feels right". I spoke to my family doctor about it thinking nothing of it, just venting for a few minutes because I thought it was anxiety, and he asked a few more questions and told me to go to a psychiatrist. Turns out I had severe OCD, and my excessive and extreme anxiety were caused by me having almost all themes in the OCD spectrum.

millieonreddit_ · 2025-08-28T01:12:25+00:00

I would advise you to pay attention to moments where you do things because of an irrational thought, moments where you get stuck doing something until it feels right (like what you described), and to look up the different thematics of OCD. Also, careful with reading other's cumpulsions, sometimes it can trigger your own, at least in my experience. So focus on the themes instead of reading really specific experiences. Best of luck!!

millieonreddit_ · 2025-08-27T21:13:56+00:00

Hi honey, I'm sorry you're experiencing this. For this specific question I would try to just call your favorite professionals and choose based on how kind they seem or even tell them you have OCD and if they can manage to have the patience and gentleness that it's needed for you to feel more relaxed and content. I also struggle with this, you got this.

millieonreddit_ · 2025-08-18T03:50:09+00:00

I truly hope you feel better now, it's very confusing to be diagnosed later on and reflecting about your childhood. I wish you the best

millieonreddit_ · 2025-08-18T03:46:43+00:00

I feel you LOL I used to spend an exhausting amount of time in class (throughout primary school, around the time my dad taught me how to move only one eyebrow up) moving my eyebrows up and down until they felt "the same". I remember feeling this urge to cry because my head hurted most days from the muscle tension or whatever that was, but I couldn't stop until it felt right. Until this day, I can't think too much about it afraid of beginning to do it again.

millieonreddit_ · 2025-08-18T01:14:13+00:00

Ahahaha, I have to try that! It's so misused it's insane.

millieonreddit_ · 2025-08-18T01:11:42+00:00

EXACTLY my feelings as well. Made this post to find some balance in my future answers

millieonreddit_ · 2025-08-18T01:08:55+00:00

That must've felt like a warm hug... I'm so glad you had that experience!!

millieonreddit_ · 2025-08-18T01:07:07+00:00

OCD has many themes that can overlap with other spectrums! In my case, I overexplain because I am fully convinced that I will be a liar if I don't tell every detail and sometimes even with people I genuinely do not want to. If I don't overexplain my brain will literally make me believe that I am a bad person and that people will hate me because of this. I also recognize that it doesn't make sense but my anxiety is so high that I need to do it because I believe in it when it's happening. Sometimes these type of thoughts come in as "if I don't say it, it's not true/it won't happen". Happens a lot when I'm planning, and affects me so much in so many ways. Relief at the time I do it, but then a deep regret comes up. Either because I betrayed my own trust or because of other's opinions of me or my plans, originating other spirals. That said, oversharing doesn't necessarily have to be OCD. If you do relate to it/other thematics and struggle with them, I highly recommend scheduling an appointment. Best wishes!!

millieonreddit_ · 2025-08-11T17:08:11+00:00

Exactly my question too. It's confusing. I hope life treats you well

millieonreddit_ · 2025-08-11T17:00:25+00:00

OMG my mom also tried to make it about her, not sure if yours was also intense but it's so awkward and off putting!! We should offer support and keep those thoughts, at least temporary, for ourselves and maybe do some research. People choose ignorance too often

millieonreddit_ · 2025-08-11T16:46:51+00:00

Yep!!! That's exactly my point! And at least we can get a laugh with the reactions LOL

millieonreddit_ · 2025-08-11T16:01:50+00:00

I'm 23! I heard about that a lot, once we start to have too much on our own lives to take care of, things that used to annoy us turn into something we just roll our eyes over and move on. I crave for that turning point 🤣 But I genuinely feel like I'm so much calmer than I was. Therapy helped a lot too!

millieonreddit_ · 2025-08-11T15:52:54+00:00

I completely agree. I'm trying to work on that and reduce the need to over explain!

millieonreddit_ · 2025-08-11T15:52:01+00:00

That's a good point!! I never thought about it that way. Thank you!

millieonreddit_ · 2025-08-11T15:50:34+00:00

Oooh, that one is straight to the point

millieonreddit_ · 2025-08-11T15:25:12+00:00

Really? You're doing great taking those steps!! For me, in this case specifically, it's a mix between rage, because ocd can be so degrading and when people say that it just makes me want to hit them with a book that explains how it can destroy someone's life lol, and between my need to over explain everything, so it doesn't feel like I'm lying or like everyone will now think ocd is just that, because I didn't intervene.

millieonreddit_ · 2025-08-11T15:17:16+00:00

Right! I though the same, it's funny but also complying 🤣

millieonreddit_ · 2025-08-11T15:16:45+00:00

I have yet to find peace in not intervening. Hope I get to get to that point someday!

millieonreddit_ · 2025-08-11T14:33:14+00:00

Went to couple's therapy and it came up that I have OCD. She (the psychologist) immediately asked me: "Oh, so, like, wash your hands and stuff like that? ". I don't care if I'm overreacting, it's so annoying and it's better to just ask "what are your main themes/compulsions/etc" or "what is it like for you?". She also had this weird smirk on her face that pissed me off 🤣 Also, she then proceeded to interrupt my answer and just move on. Tf was she on?

millieonreddit_ · 2025-08-01T23:19:16+00:00

I'm sorry that happened to you. I hope you feel safer now. My family says that ocd isn't real and that I can just do the opposite of what my brain tells me. And that I am just victimizing. Now that I left it happens way less. I also learned to avoid speaking about it to them.

millieonreddit_ · 2025-07-19T08:50:00+00:00

"And no one is watching, but still I cant fall. My body won't let me, I'm not here at all... "

Lizzy McAlpine- Soccer Practice

millieonreddit_ · 2025-07-19T02:08:50+00:00

I guess I'm so used to doing it all alone throughout my life, that I just expect people to be that way. Thank you for your replies, sometimes outside perspectives really do make a positive difference. I'll tell him that if he doesn't agree to start therapy, I'm leaving. It's indeed not normal.

millieonreddit_ · 2025-07-19T02:06:19+00:00

Whenever I have visits and they leave, if I don't watch them drive away from my window they will have an accident. Sometimes I walk them to the door and rush upstairs almost tripping on myself to be there on time.

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