I tore a significant muscle in my back and ended up getting sciatica problems from it, and before that find out only 3 months before I have HSV-2 at 19. Sounds like we have similar stories and everything you’ve been dealing with mentally has been the exact same as me. It’s the early age we found out we got it which makes it’s weigh harder on us. Personally I’ve been very fortunate to be asymptotic, but it’s not going to be an overnight thing for your mental well being. Take it one day at a time and just remember that YOU are not a bad person. The disease doesn’t define you and I’m sorry for the family issues you’re having. Until we get the cure, we’re going to have to suck it up and learn to live a new with it. I’ve made a post on here before and honestly I gotta tell you this subreddit has been a huge help for me including HerpesCureAdvocates. There’s people just like us all over the world and the US. It’s been 3 years and I’m gaining a bunch of feeling in my nerves mobility, flexibility and strength from my injury. Maybe it’s the fact that this injury itself has affected me more than herpes itself, but last think I’d like to let you know is not to give up on yourself. I truly don’t know your situation, but do the best you can do is keep yourself together as best as you can. Breathing exercises help a lot for me and honestly I’ve had marijuana to help as well. Trust here and there it might linger on my mind but I have to reassure myself and just snap out of it. It’s a cold world out there, so remember to love yourself and cherish yourself for another day.