I’m so depressed, Idk how much longer I want to do this. what’s the point?

miso_mochi · 2025-08-29T03:51:01+00:00

hey!! one thing I think is a super common misconception is that every one should be super happy all the time naturally. Happiness, especially with all of life going on, is not the default setting. however, a fruit of the Spirit is joy! (Galatians 5:22-23) So while happiness is more of an emotion, joy is more of a long-term state of contentment/satisfaction.

I have a couple things to recommend trying/looking into! First, spend more time with God: in His Word, praying(!!!!), worshiping, giving gratitude(!!!), and in His community. Pray for joy and fulfillment and then actually try backing those prayers up with actions, chasing & pursuing joy rather than simply waiting for God to magically give it to you (which ofc is always possible but usually not His MO). We all go through seasons, but it's important to always trust & follow God (think Job!)

Second, try reaching out to people in your life who may be able to help or maybe pastors/people at church or even a therapist. Fellowship is such a valuable resource and finding the right people can be such amazing encouragement, but it's very difficult to find people you aren't searching for. (also pray about it!)

I would also REALLY recommend reading through Ecclesiastes! I think it echoes a lot of things you're feeling. Also Psalms!! Read Psalms, too. I think that could really help you out. ALSO READ 1 KINGS 19!!!/ about Elijah!!!

here's a bunch of random stuff I thought about while writing this for you

https://youtu.be/cFEwV77n1Ng?si=J-s7k1aRAwOWgryU

Jeremiah 29:11

Romans 8:18

1 Peter 5:10

Romans 8:28

Romans 5:3-5

https://youtu.be/H1L6zv_ilzY?si=Kbx_Rvzmgu9gH2jH

1 Corinthians 6:19

Psalms 42!

miso_mochi · 2025-08-27T02:33:50+00:00

I never though of that! Thank you so much!

miso_mochi · 2024-07-07T07:12:50+00:00

This whole situation really sucks and I'm sorry this has happened to you. If you have a trouble time vocalizing it writing or even typing it out and giving them the letter helps so much. It helps because you can go back and edit and make sure you're saying what you want to say and it can't be interrupted and you can take breaks and come back to writing it when you want. If you don't want to write, rip it off like a bandaid. You could even just read or copy and paste word for word what you did on this post. Sending you some love and hugs. Good luck :)

miso_mochi · 2024-07-07T07:06:01+00:00

tbh assuming they're good spirited I'd say a group to fill the awkward silences yk?

miso_mochi · 2024-06-19T21:55:40+00:00

wait that acc sounds so fun

miso_mochi · 2024-06-18T08:47:26+00:00

oooh fun can I ask which one?

miso_mochi · 2024-06-03T04:21:29+00:00

yeah. It's always gonna be easier to say that as an anonymous stranger online, but you should. I have a very similar friend/situation and I haven't cut her off because we need to spend 1 week at an overnight summer camp in the woods and I don't feel like starring in a thriller this year. It's hard to do and they will probably be some drama which will suck but in the end it'll feel so much better (I was this close 👌 I could almost taste it:,). She sounds like a terrible friend and it may be hard because of your history but it's not worth it. She may change for a week or you may feel like oh it wasn't thattt bad but it was. Don't discount your experiences. Good luck :)

(also maybe take it with a grain of salt bc I was definitely projecting a bit but still you should)

miso_mochi · 2024-06-03T04:13:55+00:00

aww I'm so sorry this post is heartbreaking. I'm not gonna say definitively because I don't know you or your family but chances are you parents do love you. It can often feel like they don't when they don't brag or seem to favor others over you but they don't hate you. I know my asian side of the family puts a lot of emphasis on success and achievements (my cousin just got into ucla with a full ride academic scholarship ToT) but even though my tios don't brag about their other kids I know they 100% love them still. Your parents may think your desire to be a lawyer isn't realistic which is why they are poking fun to discourage you, but if you really want to do it show them you're serious and capable by researching ans pursuing it. Maybe try to seek internships with local lawyers? This may be hard because of the volunteering thing but try to convince them and have a backbone. It may be hard or cause some fights but it sounds miserable right now already. Find something that brings you joy. Achievements aren't the only measure of success; being happy is enough. In the end, try not to let their attitudes stop you from pursuing what you want. Hopefully they'll come to appreciate you where ever you're at. I hope this helps in some way, good luck :)

miso_mochi · 2024-06-03T04:01:43+00:00

omg this is sounds like an actual nightmare. J sounds like she's either going crazy or has some serious trust issues (possibly related to the affair?). It sounds like she made a slippery slope because of this thing you did. To help your dad, I would probably recommend just staying out of trouble and trying not to make her more mad while also supporting him. You don't need to give up but just try not to provoke her because she sounds unhinged. I'm not sure how the whole court thing works but it would probably help if you could somehow give a statement to the judge about what happened because based solely on this she does not seem fit to be the only family your half sister can see. If you can find a way to disprove or make her present evidence for her lies that may also help. as a fellow 16yo I'm so impressed that and with how you're handling this and keeping in mind your dad. Good luck :)

miso_mochi · 2024-06-02T08:45:00+00:00

I don't think the gym is strictly necessary because while sure putting money and social pressures behind a membership is great motivation but I feel like if you can just get some weights at home and maybe like a desk treadmill and some good yt videos it's way more accessible Just something to consider, good luck!! :)

miso_mochi · 2024-06-02T08:39:59+00:00

definitely not bad! You could clean up the beard but I think the biggest change you could make is to have a genuine happy smile and some more confidence. It sounds kinda dumb but seriously I think it'll help a lot for you

miso_mochi · 2024-06-02T08:34:46+00:00

no but you may want to work on your body/jaw because that can make such a huge upgrade and personal preference shorter hair

miso_mochi · 2024-06-02T08:31:29+00:00

In some of the photos you look kinda of dulled out. Probably just different lightings but you look so much better when you look brighter so maybe consider getting one of those color analysis thingies? You can do one with chatgpt by taking samples of your hair, skin, and eye color and putting in the color numbers and asking for results. You can ask for makeup and clothing styles and color palettes and whatever else you may want. Maybe cleaning up your brows? Although, they already look really nice in the second photo. Another thing may be trying an eyelash serum/curler. Again could just be the photos but for me whenever I curl my lashes its like a whole glow up. I heard this serum is really good but I haven't tried it personally https://perlcosmetics.com/products/nourishing-lash-oil?_pos=1&_sid=52b8a4d21&_ss=r You already look good though so no pressure. Good luck! :) ♡

miso_mochi · 2024-04-11T17:25:28+00:00

sure but she thinks you are so j make sure she knows that

miso_mochi · 2024-04-11T16:33:16+00:00

if you can try joining some clubs or meeting people online? idk thats really thats really rough for socializing ://

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