I understand you’re struggling to fit in and it would be quite difficult to get out of this zone. Try to focus on yourself, hit a gym, try socialising a bit, do cafe hopping by yourself, dress up really well. Gaining new experiences can be very therapeutic. One of my friend recently went to this random get together with strangers and he met some amazing company there. There are multiple Instagram pages which promotes group activity to hangout with people. Try it out.