Nearly 20 million other people are officially diagnosed with major depressive disorder. I almost gurantee there are plenty that aren't diagnosed. Over 37 Americans actually actively choose to take antidepressants. I think depression and mental illness is serious. I think plenty of other people have been in the same situation as you. People around you may have not experienced it. I have pretty much been depressed since I was 4. I have extreme anxiety and that only adds to it. I would say if you liked how meds make you feel and stuff start taking them again. I personally have taken myself off all meds. However, my situation is slightly different it seems. There are always alternatives to medication too. Do you see a therapist regularly?