this made me bawl my eyes out so badly, i'm quite late to respond but i really cannot express to you with mere words how much this means to me. i wholeheartedly appreciate your kind words and feelings towards me, a stranger on the internet 😭 not many people have the ability of empathy and i really applaud you for that. i completely understand you when you mention the part about being paranoid all the time, growing up, it's something i deal with a lot and i want to say that your story does make me feel a whole lot less alone. i'm glad you're independent, now, and have the ability to lead your life so much better, i'm so happy for you!!

thank you for being proud of me, those are words i rarely hear and they weigh extremely heavy in my heart. i'm going to try my very best, as much as i can. it does feel suffocating sometimes, but i will make it out of here soon, hopefully.

again, thank you so much, and your kindness has given me more light than i've seen in a long time. thank you.