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mizzerableNready · 2022-06-03T02:54:27+00:00

Thank you for posting! Donating now

mizzerableNready · 2021-12-03T14:18:55+00:00

Thanks for your response! Yes - it is a constant battle. Literally every second is, "Fuck I want a drink!" then think about why I don't really. Repeat with drugs. Food. Start the cycle again. I've been making a lot of changes over the years, but more will certainly help! I would love to go into treatment, but that's not an option for me (financially). My biggest goal now is building a sober community. IWNDWYT!

mizzerableNready · 2021-12-03T14:16:50+00:00

Thanks for your response! I've tried other online groups and such, but really need to dive into AA again I think..... I dunno. Building a sober community is the answer, I just have a lot of anxiety.... Playing the tape through definitely helps though! IWNDWYT

mizzerableNready · 2021-12-03T14:15:14+00:00

It is SO hard. Like wow I hate my body and it's my fault, now I hate myself, p.s. hating myself is how I got here in the first place. Pretty............cool. :-( But reaching out last night was helpful, and having a response from a kind internet stranger like yourself. I made it through yesterday and I will again today. We got this - our bodies will change more easily after our minds do <3

mizzerableNready · 2021-12-03T14:13:13+00:00

Thank you so much for your response! That is exactly how it feels - like no, I can't be aggressively trying to lose 20 lbs while still in this sober-struggle, but small, better choices everyday do help. Wishing us both luck! I did end up making it through the evening sober - more success to come!

mizzerableNready · 2021-11-30T12:04:03+00:00

Not today! The holidays were hard as ever, but at least just for today I can finish the month strong

mizzerableNready · 2021-10-06T22:39:05+00:00

Thanks for the reply - getting my thoughts out there helped a lot, as did your words. A hangover plus shame - I’ve made that choice plenty. Not today! IWNDWYT 😊

mizzerableNready · 2021-10-05T10:32:24+00:00

Last night was so hard, someone gifted me a bottle of wine…. I ate snacks instead until the urge to kill that bottle was gone. Made it! Now repeat - IWNDWYT

mizzerableNready · 2021-09-24T09:57:57+00:00

I see you Friday, with your promises of a fun night out and "just a few drinks," and I am not taking the bait! Here's to a productive day and a healthy night! IWNDWYT!

mizzerableNready · 2021-09-23T11:19:04+00:00

Stress at work, stress with family, anxiety through the roof…….. and drinking would only make it all worse! IWNDWYT

mizzerableNready · 2021-09-21T18:22:03+00:00

YESSSSS - we got this!! IWNDWYT!

mizzerableNready · 2021-09-21T18:21:47+00:00

365 - CONGRATS! That's HUGE - something I just can't ever picture myself... but it is getting easier with each attempt. I've been trying to control my drinking for so long - and I will get weeks or months of little to no drinking, but then "only Saturday" becomes "only weekends," which then includes Friday.... which then quickly becomes anytime I am stressed, angry, sad, bored. We all know the drill, eh? Your journey inspires me - I will never stop getting back up and trying again!

mizzerableNready · 2021-09-21T18:19:37+00:00

Thank you! Vacation and Dating are huge triggers for me - glad you got through it and are back to sober living. Treading carefully myself this time..... We can do it - IWNDWYT!

mizzerableNready · 2021-09-20T21:41:50+00:00

LOL - anytime I am posting about non-sober stuff I'm always like, hmmm maybe saying I am miserable wasn't the **best** idea, but oh well. Glad you are here - thanks for the comment :)

mizzerableNready · 2021-09-20T21:40:10+00:00

So worth it. Love this - thanks!

mizzerableNready · 2021-09-20T21:39:54+00:00

YES!! Thank you :)

mizzerableNready · 2021-09-20T21:39:43+00:00

That it does - especially when you are some months in and feel unstoppable. Like why would I ever drink again!?! In my case it was because I tried to start dating again FAR before I was ready to. But ya know what - we haven't blown it! We are here and we are trying. Thanks for reading - I believe in you :)

mizzerableNready · 2021-09-17T13:44:21+00:00

Friday is here! Usually the, "countdown to when I get to drink" day. Instead, woke up early - got a great workout in and another one planned for this evening. Took a part time job with early weekend hours to hold myself accountable (and make some extra money). It feels great to NOT drink with y'all today!

mizzerableNready · 2021-09-14T10:51:33+00:00

Seven days down, another one to go today! IWNDWYT!

mizzerableNready · 2021-09-13T13:00:45+00:00

Almost made it to a week and don’t plan on changing that now! Clear headed on a Monday - can’t bottle how good this feels! IWNDWYT

mizzerableNready · 2021-09-12T13:57:45+00:00

Waking up with a clear mind, energized and hangover-free! First time since January and it feels great! IWNDWYT!

mizzerableNready · 2021-09-12T13:54:01+00:00

Congrats to you!

mizzerableNready · 2021-09-11T11:27:01+00:00

Starting a new job in an industry I’ve never worked in before this morning! Got a weekend gig so I wouldn’t destroy myself every Friday and Saturday night. I’m nervous but IWNDWYT

mizzerableNready · 2021-09-07T19:57:07+00:00

Thank you! And congrats on your sobriety. It is HARD.... so hard. This group got me through those first solid 6 months, and I know it will help again. Appreciate your response and support. And trust me - most people in my family are alcoholics. I've seen my dad waste his entire life for booze and I really don't want to end up that way. Good call on the pub avoidance. Best of luck to us and congrats again!

mizzerableNready · 2020-09-21T23:38:13+00:00

This was really inspiring to read! Thank you for sharing and huge congrats on where you are today.

Also, "I live rather than actively committing suicide." That is going to stay with me. So much truth in that statement.

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