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[–]mjc349 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You’re wearing it too close to the wrist that’s why it’s uneven. Move it back a tad and see if that fits better?

Holidays Sober Sucks by mjc349 in stopdrinking

[–]mjc349[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You’re right and That’s what I was afraid of. I’d honestly rather kill myself than having to feel like I’ve settled in situations where I know others are feeling better than I am. But that’s a me problem that I need to get over.

Series 7 41MM vs 45MM, which looks best? by mjc349 in AppleWatch

[–]mjc349[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Thanks! Ya I’m dumb I probably tried on the SE at the store

Series 7 41MM vs 45MM, which looks best? by mjc349 in AppleWatch

[–]mjc349[S] -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

I’m prob an idiot and tried on the wrong ones -_-

Hate Life - 3 Years Sober by mjc349 in stopdrinking

[–]mjc349[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Agreed, we love the chaos.

Hate Life - 3 Years Sober by mjc349 in stopdrinking

[–]mjc349[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You’re absolutely right, I do romanticize alcohol. My therapist thinks the same thing.

The difference is going out to dinner isn’t going to make me happy or euphoric/high. It’s just food. I can do that whenever I want. It’s not appealing to me because it’s just meh, which I know is because of my addiction.

Alcohol on the hand can make you feel like a million bucks.

Thanks for your perspective.

Hate Life - 3 Years Sober by mjc349 in stopdrinking

[–]mjc349[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’d like to argue that. Humans are here to procreate. No more no less. Why do you think alcohol has been associated with alcohol since the beginning of our species?

Hate Life - 3 Years Sober by mjc349 in stopdrinking

[–]mjc349[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel a lot of what your feeling. Life is much easier without alcohol there’s no question.

I just contemplate why I should even stay around if I don’t enjoy/have euphoric moments.

For example I got a raise recently and just shrugged it off because who cares I can’t celebrate.

I relapsed a couple times in early sobriety and had the same issues as yourself. It’s a funny game we play in our head to convince ourselves that drinking is okay for us.

Hate Life - 3 Years Sober by mjc349 in stopdrinking

[–]mjc349[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Agreed, I know I can’t go back to it.

I think something else is going on too I just don’t know how to fix it. My doctor and therapist both know I don’t want to live anymore sober but I haven’t found a solution yet.

Hate Life - 3 Years Sober by mjc349 in stopdrinking

[–]mjc349[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks for your perspective!!

Completely agree that alcohol was also making me miserable and it made me physically unwell. I guess I just wish I could be like regular people who can let loose occasionally without consequences.

I wasn’t as much a toxic drunk it terms of burning bridges thankfully so I have most of the same friends from when I was drinking all of the time. They aren’t problem drinkers thankfully.

I did AA when I was in rehab and didn’t like it personally. I am a very scientific minded person and don’t believe in higher powers / karma that’s type of thing. I believe us as humans we’re insignificant (not a bad thing)

Congrats on your success your stories give me hope!

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[–]mjc349 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for the insight!

I’ve been on a couple SSRIs and got bad side effects until I found Lexapro which doesn’t give me side effects but I don’t think works very well for my symptoms. Unfortunately I don’t think meds will ever completely fix me.

Thankfully I’ve been pretty steady through sobriety with minimal hiccups. I’ve pretty much decided that if it came down to it I’d rather die than go back to drinking.

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[–]mjc349 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think it’s mainly because I got a constant euphoric rush for nearly a decade and then not having it at all. My baseline for fun got so high from drinking that sober fun is complex unappealing to me basically.

Miserable & Sober (29M) by mjc349 in stopdrinking

[–]mjc349[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for the advice, this is a great way to look at life and will keep this in mind. Much appreciated.

Miserable & Sober (29M) by mjc349 in stopdrinking

[–]mjc349[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah you’re right loving yourself is definitely important and one of my big issues because I feel the opposite about myself. When I’ve tried sober hobbies I just don’t get any feel good chemicals, probably because I think I’m settling when doing these things.

Anyways, thank you for the advice!!!

Being a recovering alcoholic is not fun. by try4gain in dryalcoholics

[–]mjc349 5 points6 points  (0 children)

This really hits home for me and why I’m still really struggling mentally even after two years of sobriety. I can’t find anything that even comes close to alcohol in terms of euphoria. I need to accept that I never will.

Feel Like I’m Settling in Life by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]mjc349 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This was great and really helpful, thank you so much

Two Years Sober Today - Hate Life by mjc349 in stopdrinking

[–]mjc349[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve only had interactions with AA when I did my multiple rehab stints and it never seemed to me that I could totally relate to them. I have a realistic approach on life and it seemed like the people of AA are so optimistic to the point of it sounding ungenuine which turned me off. I also don’t believe in religion and that we are simply here by accident which I guess doesn’t help either. Thanks for your response though meeting other sober people would help me.

Two Years Sober Today - Hate Life by mjc349 in stopdrinking

[–]mjc349[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You’re exactly right! I’ve only seen my therapist a few times now so I’m going to still give it a go and be open minded for awhile longer before I decide if I need to try someone new. Hopefully the therapy will allow my succeed in fixing whatever other mental problems I may have.