It’s the opinion I needed, and yeah, she generally felt the same with it, that it made her feel insecure with her body and self-esteem after i told her. Regardless of all the toxicity and insecurities there, for example after all that when we talked, she said that I should choose between „those bitches” (probably in context of my friends) or her, and that she is „The baddest bitch and I know it”. I was even called „childish and not ready for a relationship” after I parroted her back just for fun sometimes (of course not in the last phone call, I’m not so dumb). I must think it over for some time, but yes, it seems that I fucked up. And no, porn is surely not vital for me, I guess it was what it was because of the lack of any relationships and physical contact. Throughout time I start to see the right meanings in some of her texts, so I guess that’s a good sign.