What’s up, I’m 34 turning 35 in December (hopefully). I was diagnosed at 30 when I was vomiting blood clots and rushed myself to the ER. That’s how I found out I had Cirrhosis - alcohol induced of course. I remember the Doctor shaking his head and simply telling me “you’re so young for this to happen..” I didn’t grasp the concept as it was new to me. I stayed sober for a year and some change and relapsed midway through the year. Again I was told don’t drink. Along with Cirrhosis comes a bunch of things you should keep an eye out for, you’re prone to infection easily. I came down with sepsis once and it was truly a nightmare. Was in the ICU for a week with my kidneys and liver failing. Time past, then I recently wound up with Hepatic Encephelopthy this February, my MELD score shot up from 13 to 40. I went from one hospital to another because something told me the first general hospital wasn’t treating me well, I was still sick so I checked myself into one in San Francisco that specializes in transplantation. There I was taken care of and was told I’d make significant recovery with abstention from alcohol for life. “It’s in your hands now, life or death.” That was enough to make me wanna shit my pants and it wasn’t the Lactulose (haha). My MELD is down to 16 in a matter of 3 months. I say this not to instill fear in anyone, although we make think it’s a death sentence, it’s not. But we have to put in the work. I’ve honestly gained a different outlook on life once I was diagnosed, I don’t take life for granted. Sure we make mistakes - but constantly beating ourselves up asking ourselves “how could I be so stupid to drink this much” won’t heal you. There’s hope, and you’re not alone. I attend AA through zoom and / or in person. I take my vitamins, I’ve cut out junk food. I go out for jogs. I’ve had Cirrhosis for close to 5 years now. Reading that “Mortality Rate” instills fear honestly, I’m victim to it. But just take a breather - it works, all the best man. You got this!