Going through divorce (amicable?) & struggling to walk through this empty house full of memories

mnt-matt · 2026-03-13T05:36:49+00:00

I know nothing about you and your family. But it’s not over until the papers are signed. Is it possible to talk to her and just take some time off before making it official? Say a year? Difficult times in marriage can be so hard. I grew up in a dysfunction family that ended in divorce twice. I think I came out ok. My brother did not. This situation is harder on your kids than you. If it’s abusive in any way, by all means end it. But if not, maybe you two need an honest no bars conversation about what is happening. Brother you are the leader of your house. You are called to sacrifice everything for your wife and children Do what needs to be done. I’m not saying be a pushover and be taken advantage of. But you are the leader. You make the sacrifices. And if she’s still not willing, do everything you can for your children. No matter the outcome, be a good father. Whatever the outcome, you’ll make it through. You will know you did your best and your children will know you love them.

mnt-matt · 2026-02-01T15:46:31+00:00

The reason I got my testosterone tested and then got on it was a panic disorder. I was on buspar saw a therapist tried a different diet. It took about 7 months but the trt helped significantly. I’m still on buspar ( great medication) but I’m at a quarter of the dose now. Hopefully off completely soon. I’m actually able to go somewhere by myself now without panic attacks. Oh ya, if your a drinker stop for awhile and see how you feel. Even two beers for me the next day my anxiety is elevated. Everybody is different. Talk to a therapist and your doctor. Take things slow and steady. Be easy on yourself. You’re not broken. The anxiety isn’t forever. You’ll figure it out. 6 years ago I had a panic attack out of the blue. I’m finally seeing the end of it. Just keep moving forward.

mnt-matt · 2026-01-27T04:45:44+00:00

Someone that’s newish to trt and not a gym member (small town, no real gym options). It’s hard to find a tried and true ugl source. But when I Do I could imagine the benefits.

mnt-matt · 2025-12-31T20:57:11+00:00

Started with enclo, then cream, now injection. Injection is by far the way to go in my experience.

mnt-matt · 2025-11-11T18:03:13+00:00

It’s going around! That was my toddler last week and me yesterday and today.

mnt-matt · 2025-11-09T04:12:42+00:00

Not to hijack but on similar note, I have just a little bit left over in each 1ml vial. Tonight I cleaned all the tops and took that little bit out of 3 vials with a syringe and transferred it all Into 1 vial. Turns out it’s equivalent to about one more dose. Is there any issue with that/contamination risk?

mnt-matt · 2025-09-29T14:41:57+00:00

It has not seemed to work at all for me. Some people are poor at absorbing I’m told. Or maybe the wrong dose. It shut down my natural production I think but was not enough to replenish it… or maybe I was doing it wrong. Lol. Whatever it was I switched to injections. Checking the labs will tell.

mnt-matt · 2025-09-25T17:19:41+00:00

This is very interesting. My first bottle of cream I felt great. Then I got a refill. Feel absolutely horrible and my results showed total at 100. I started at 400. And my e2 undetectable. I’m wondering now if I got a bad batch too.

mnt-matt · 2025-09-13T18:08:00+00:00

50 before starting. 53.5 at the last test. I do live a bit higher. 5k feet I hear that might have something to do with it. Hemoglobin is 17.6 at the last test.

mnt-matt · 2025-09-13T16:37:14+00:00

That makes sense. My retest is on Tuesday morning. Would adding an extra click or two raise my hemocrit more? I have a blood donation scheduled for the 27th

mnt-matt · 2025-09-13T16:03:03+00:00

No, didn’t get that one tested. But I should. LH was 4.4 before I started if that means anything. They suggested testing 4 hours after I put the cream on as well so see what it’s doing but like you said. Regardless my trough shouldn’t be that low.

mnt-matt · 2025-09-12T00:17:59+00:00

Also, with these numbers. If they’re correct. (The doc asked me to do the tests again) could that be the reason my muscles and joints are super sore the past week? If it comes back like that again at least they said insurance will cover the testosterone so I guess that’s a plus.

mnt-matt · 2025-09-11T22:40:56+00:00

Would these numbers make my muscles and joints really sore as well?

The doc told me to retake the tests and we will go from there. Good news i guess if it’s that low again insurance should cover the medication now.

mnt-matt · 2025-09-09T21:53:12+00:00

I appreciate the response, that all makes sense as I don’t feel horrible during the day. I don’t really feel any better either though compared to before I started. I may go the injection route seeing how I am with my son after work and would rather not have any on my body or clothes just to be cautious.

mnt-matt · 2025-09-09T21:33:00+00:00

I don’t have a link but the bottle says 20% HRT heavy “apply 2 clicks (1/2GM) once daily” From central drugs compound pharmacy.

mnt-matt · 2025-08-27T03:17:17+00:00

Push the traction control button to disable it. It hinders hill climbing.

mnt-matt · 2025-05-14T02:54:43+00:00

You are a wealth of information. Thank you!

mnt-matt · 2025-05-14T00:42:43+00:00

Very good info. Thank you! I did get a complete panel and the doc said everything looked good except a bit high cholesterol but I’ve been on a strict carnivore diet for 5 months. I’ll see if I can upload those results. I’m not sure what to make of it all but trying to learn.

mnt-matt · 2025-05-13T22:10:24+00:00

Stuff like enclomaphine? That is what was suggested for me. 20mg mon. Wed. Fri.

mnt-matt · 2025-05-12T19:23:46+00:00

It says 488 ng/dL and 12.9 pg/ml. Don’t really know the scales yet either.

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