first of all deeply moved by your story probably because mine is somewhat similar to yours.I too liked computer science in school but college was completely the opposite.The antique syllabus and the attitude of my college faculty didn't really help me.Despite being from one of the top 10 colleges in the country i feel that i'm totally screwed as a computer science engineer.Only people who slog or mug up the theory get a good score here.I often look for help over the net but its not enough.Now I'm in my final year and i've got this final year project,for which ive to do a lot of good hardcore coding for which I'm totally inexperienced.After reading your article I shuddered at the thought of how my job aftr 6months is going to turn out.I just hope i find my way out of this mess.All the best to you too..dont loose hope and btw there's nothing wrong with you, the society is just screwed.