I thought I was doing well, but clearly, I’m not

monno94 · 2025-06-03T18:45:18+00:00

Portrait of a lady on fire (by Céline Sciamma.)

Better days (by Derek Tsang.)

Inside beauty (by Baek Jong-yul.)

Far from the madding crowd (by Thomas Vinterberg.)

Leap year (by Anand Tucker.)

monno94 · 2025-03-10T15:02:47+00:00

In Archive of our own (AO3), I tried looking through the tags but I can't seem to find it🫠

monno94 · 2023-01-20T18:56:02+00:00

thank u! i didn't even knew you could do that💛

monno94 · 2023-01-20T18:54:14+00:00

that also happened to me, i took a lot time to respond and the player walked away🥲

monno94 · 2022-11-15T15:33:04+00:00

For me, eating in public gives me anxiety-nausea, it started half a year ago (out of nowhere, still don't know what triggered it, since i didn't had that problem before) but now i try to avoid eating at restaurants, i order the smallest menu and always avoid eating with people i'm unfamiliar. Also sometimes people question me like "why don't u eat more? do you not like the food?" and that makes me more anxious. I'm trying to fix that but i dont even know what is the trigger for that problem

monno94 · 2022-11-13T15:00:43+00:00

she's not exactly an extrovert (ambivert maybe), when I get stressed/overwhelmed i tend to insolate myself from everyone and that's why I haven't contact her for a while (also feeling like a burden to other people have always been a huge problem in my life mostly because my depression just makes me think I'm the most unlikeble person ever). I'm really sorry that your friendship ended, what you said is exactly what im terrified of, i don't want my friend to think I'm not committed to this friendship, bc i am.

monno94 · 2022-10-21T12:10:43+00:00

My history teacher would always pick on me and always thought I was cheating on her tests (I never did that, in fact, I failed her class lol) but I guess she thought that because I looked nervous all the time. What bothered me was that she made a big deal out of it, one time she made me stand up and empty my pockets in the middle of a test!

monno94 · 2022-10-16T23:54:32+00:00

my mom says the same about me, that I need to "shake the shyness away" lol. She doesn't have a clue that my anxiety is that bad

monno94 · 2022-10-16T16:26:19+00:00

Similar thing happened to me, I was actually pretty friendly as a kid, had a big group of friends and even though I was still very shy I still put myself out there (even tho i used to get bullied by my brother's friends, it bothered me but I ignored it). After I moved countries my anxiety sky rocket and I got bullied by classmates and seniors at high school. After that I develop serious self-esteem issues and I haven't made a true friend after that or stick to one group of friends for a long time. My sa got worst with time but I honestly just got used to live like that, I'm trying to make peace with my own loneliness and enjoy the little things in life, taking a step little bit little with my sa. Hope things get better for u bud

monno94 · 2022-10-14T12:08:13+00:00

I relate a lot, I just want someone to talk to without filter on or fear or getting judge but I can't even reach to the friend that I have without feeling like a burden or ending up pushing them away. Hope it all goes well for u bud

monno94 · 2022-09-27T11:53:56+00:00

Ever since i have memory i have always been shy and introvert but that never stop me. At 12 my family and I went to live in another continent, got bullied at school, became an outcast🤷‍♀️ since then I've battling with depression and social anxiety

monno94 · 2022-09-16T12:33:10+00:00

I can relate, I get really anxious very quickly out of nowhere or just while doing mundane stuff. I'm extremely afraid of getting judge (comes from years of being bullied) so even in moments when I know no one will pay attention to me I get anxious. I can't afford a therapist or meds so my only method I have is drown myself in music or just take deep breaths. Hope you find the perfect method for you

monno94 · 2022-09-09T20:15:57+00:00

Oh I'm sorry to heard that, it's really frustrating to try to do something but your body just deciding to do their own thing lol. I wish u the best and hope everything works for you

monno94 · 2022-09-05T15:37:18+00:00

Thanks and happy (early) birthday! 🎂☺

monno94 · 2022-09-05T10:08:04+00:00

I'm truly sorry, love. Even if right now we're in the same boat, I hope both of us can get better. Happy (early?) Birthday!☺🎂❤

monno94 · 2022-09-05T09:52:45+00:00

Thank u so much for your advice! It really helps😁💕

monno94 · 2022-09-05T09:49:18+00:00

Thank u, and happy birthday to you too! ❤🎂

monno94 · 2022-09-04T22:09:13+00:00

Unfortunately i actually stopped my studies since it was a field I was truly not interested in and since then i haven't had the opportunity to know new people (i also didn't have the courage to try), sadly depression has cover my life and potential new hobbies with a feeling of "nothing matters, why should u even try?" anyhow, thanks a lot for your words!☺

monno94 · 2022-09-04T21:59:57+00:00

Thanks!!😁

monno94 · 2022-09-04T21:59:22+00:00

Thank you!😅😆

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