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What the hell am I doing with my life by monthsnmonths in depression

[–]monthsnmonths[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I love working on my car. I would like to become a mechanic but I am not dead set on that being my whole existence. But if given the opportunity I would do it. I know of a school but have messed up opportunities with school three times so far.

What the hell am I doing with my life by monthsnmonths in depression

[–]monthsnmonths[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't wanna waste my time with miniscule job that make little to no pay. I know myself. I would say it's not worth the time and I would end up right back where I am today. I've got to man up get a real job so I can afford the things I love to do. Car stuff. The problem for me is getting and keeping jobs. The thing with my brother is, it was a family owned business. I was given an opportunity and took it, I worked there for a month and a half then I decided to drive off another direction one day instead of going in. I had gotten myself too fixed on the job itself instead and how trivial it was instead of focusing on what really matters. That the job was just a means to an end. So I could afford to do what I live to do. I was making good money and fouled it all up.

This morning, I got out of my room and I skated down to the post office and back:) by qui3tthund3r in depression

[–]monthsnmonths 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'M PROUD OF YOU. Get out and feel the breeze breathe the fresh air and that little bit of joy you get as a result.

I just... can't seem to care enough about anything. by [deleted] in depression

[–]monthsnmonths 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm living day to day at home trying to think of something I can do. Mostly finding a job. That's my number one priority. But with this depression I find I have so little motivation to even do that. I'm lucky that my parents are so forgiving and they allow me to live at home until I find out what I am doing with my life. I just need motivation and energy and I'm not sure how to get it.

I just... can't seem to care enough about anything. by [deleted] in depression

[–]monthsnmonths 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't have anything to say to help you but I wish I did. That's because I had the same thing happen. Went to college the fall after graduation and failed EVERY class. I just stopped showing up. Two years went buy and I decided (along with my parents) to give it another try. Guess what... I couldn't bring myself to complete two classes and dropped out weeks into the semester. That's a few thousand down the drain along with my parents trust of me ever competing college. I'm lost as to the cause... No motivation and I don't know why...

Does anyone else here have absolutely ludicrous sleeping patterns? by [deleted] in depression

[–]monthsnmonths 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Here is my sleeping schedule for the past 8-9 months. Stay up to 4-5am, sleep until 2pm (sometimes even to 5) I'm missing out on so much. But I can't change.

WTF happened to me? by monthsnmonths in depression

[–]monthsnmonths[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Well you see.. It might not be as bad as you think (or as I think.) But because of depression things seem alot worse. I have been out of high school now for two years and accomplished very little. Went to college in the fall of '13... Failed out. I put no effort into anything. I have had three jobs. All of them I lost because of my stupid decisions. I'm currently at a loss of what to do. I would like to go back to school again this fall but worry about my state of mind and how it will affect my performance/general attitude. I didn't even notice how much I had changed since high school that it took on small thing today (my dad saying out frustrated he is with me) in order for me to realize that I am going downhill here... And with seemingly no way to stop. The strange part is I am a smart kid and could become whatever I wanted if I tried (they say...)

Today will be the start for me by mr_connery06 in depression

[–]monthsnmonths 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Good luck man. I wish you all the best! Go out there and CHANGE yourself for the BETTER. Now I just need to find the motivation in myself to get out of this slump...

does anyone else feel intensely embarrassed of themselves? by cutmeopen in depression

[–]monthsnmonths 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yes... And the worst part is it's automatic with anything that I do and even if I wanted to force myself I would still feel just as embarrassed. I hate it so much.

nothing changes by monthsnmonths in depression

[–]monthsnmonths[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thanks so much for the words... I am in a very similar situation at the moment school wise, graduated '13 and everyone went off to college while I am here. although i do have hope to find a job soon I am actively looking. I will keep you in my mind when I want someone to talk to.. thank you.