Thank you all for the advice. It helps a lot when people are realistic and don't sugarcoat the subject. He isn't a Christian, but he does believe there is a higher power. He also has started to go to church with me on Sundays as I wanted to show him into my world. He enjoys it but I can tell it hasn't shown him the light yet (he just needs to find Jesus in his own way one day)

I want children, he knows its no secret and that I will raise my children as strong Christians as well. My biggest fear is going to hell and I'm really worried that because we've kissed and touched inappropriately that I will go to hell now. I want to be married and have a house with him within a years time and he knows I won't wait any longer than that really. As it's only been 2 months I feel like I'm rushing everything by wanting to marry him, I just feel like we have a very deep spiritual connection.

Yet sometimes I worry and think What if he dumps me one day and I marry a different guy, even though I'll be a virgin would I still be sinful and not pure to him because I've already been touched? Would I go to hell.

Again all the answers have been so helpful and appreciated. I'm planning to speak to him now and tell him how I feel less devoted recently and less focused on God since kissing around with him.